I thought my life would go like this.
A constant upward progression – to infinity and beyond with all possibilities before me. After all that is what the Bible says doesn’t it. “For with God, nothing will be impossible.” (Luke 1:27)
Even as a Christian, I believed that if I followed the right formula all would turn out just right. I set out on a path to study hard, pray harder and prophesy over anything that breathed. As a pastor in California, a speaker traveling to many different nations at times, lots of different cultural scenarios – life was good. It should all flow right into bigger ministry, better opportunities and more success. Something like this.
But, it didn’t.
It doesn’t actually work that way. Nothing is impossible with God. That’s true. But that doesn’t mean that everything is possible for me. It all works for good, though.
Life constantly brings me down into its reality, where formulas don’t work, answers run out, and everything we thought would be, did not come about. Life twists and turns along a chaotic path. It’s not built on templates, or someone else’s path to prosperity or even on enough positive thoughts.
While drinking a caramel macchiato and looking through Flickr, I came to the conclusion that if I were to graph my life, it might look like this.
Or even this other great picture.
My life is not static, but dynamic with explosions of light in between the day-to-day, Revelation finds me and I burst onto a new scene, transformed by what has gone before. The before was the years it sometimes takes to get ‘there’ where there is no forward movement but just walking along in sync with Jesus, learning of Him and discovering His ways. “There” are the times when nothing seems to be happening and I can hope to leave ‘there’ but if I do, I will miss what I am supposed to learn “there” that will take me to the next place. Whew! Understand?
My life is organic in flow and eternal in focus, in the world but not of the world. In Christ. That is my point of reference, wherever He takes me.
My life is rocked in explosions of light where Jesus, the way, truth, and life intercepts my path and simply blows everything up at times. That is the way He teaches me that life is not lived in increments, gradual increases over time. For me, there are explosions of light, which shift me into new plateaus of living. With that comes new relationships, locations, revelation and maturity.
God seems to love life explosions where transformation propels us into new places.
As he journeyed he came near Damascus, and suddenly a light shone around him from heaven. 4 Then he fell to the ground, and heard a voice saying to him, “ Saul, Saul, why are you persecuting Me? (Acts 9:3-4 NKJVS)
In the year that King Uzziah died, I saw the Master sitting on a throne––high, exalted! ––and the train of his robes filled the Temple. 2 Angel–seraphs hovered above him, each with six wings. With two wings they covered their faces, with two their feet, and with two they flew. (Isaiah 6:1-2 Message)
Now in the sixth month the angel Gabriel was sent by God to a city of Galilee named Nazareth, 27 to a virgin betrothed to a man whose name was Joseph, of the house of David. The virgin’s name was Mary. 28 And having come in, the angel said to her, “ Rejoice, highly favored one, the Lord is with you; blessed are you among women!” (Luke 1:26-28 NKJVS)
My life graph is not in incremental increases of measured success. I can’t be graphed or timelined into measured points that produced measured output. Remember the post “We are not producers.” I believe in hard work and discipline IN the flow of Holy Spirit. God knows me, formed me and is intimately aware of my life path.
How can I break this down to those of you who may be a bit more practical in your thinking? As I live, move and have my being in Christ, internal transformation, the light and life of Christ in Holy Spirit leads and guides me on my life journey. Being in sync with Him means I can’t quantify my life by any worldly measurement scale of wealth, degree, knowledge, prestige, honor or fame. Those all disappear in time but that which is eternal never fades or goes away but remains forever.
Relationships, love, mercy, grace, Holy Spirit, compassion, courage, intercession, commitment, integrity, excellence………..virtues that build me up, maybe unseen by those looking for some outward measure of success. God looks on the inside, elevates those who are the least likely and turns things upside down in His kingdom. It is a glorious day to be alive.
Rivers of Eden Ministry