A simple vision one day from the Lord. He always answers questions that dwell in the depth of our hearts EVEN when we don’t know how to ask them. They stir within us, yet words can’t quite nail down what is causing this tension within.
I was running ahead of myself. I kept looking back and would only see what I perceived to be REALITY and I did not want to particularly look at REALITY. So I kept running to try to outrun the REALITY of certain situations and circumstances in my life. If I did not have to SEE it, then I would not have to face it.
When I saw this vision, I realized that to face reality is the greatest evidence of faith and trust in the Lord Jesus Christ. To truly look at something with eyes wide open, neither disturbs us, lessens our hope, causes pain, or any number of reactions that flow from a reality that looks so far from a dream within us. We look at the present, the reality of our lives. It is hard for all of us to do at times. The picture that reality paints may be one of hopelessness, discouragement, and even loss of vision. We cannot begin to understand how God can and does work through a reality that is seemingly impossible. Yet He does. I don’t know how, when, where, or at what time. I have to simply trust.
Why look back? Looking back, we come face to face with the impossible of what has not happened or could not possibly happen in and through our lives. Then we walk in a greater reality that NOTHING is impossible with God. Avoiding reality often means that we walk in presumption or assumption. What could be or should be based upon our expectations form in our lives, which then becomes a false reality. It is best to trust God in the midst of what appears to be a reality that can’t be changed – BY YOU.
I had to look carefully at reality in my life. As I finally turned to face the fact that I was not where I THOUGHT I would be at this point in my life, pain overwhelmed me. This reality, apart from God, seemed a place that I did not want to be so I kept running ahead of myself trying to create something at some time in some place. That did not work. It can never work if our heart is set in union with Christ. That tension is tension, simply stated.
I kept looking at reality through the lens of my expectations. In and through that lens, I looked like a failure. Suddenly and I am still in process, God changed and is changing my vision to SEE that He can change my reality in a split second. When joy overtakes your being, you realize that even if it did not change, one simply trusts that His ways are His good intentions for each of us. Resting in this reality of rest, not running around looking for something to happen but simply trusting restored peace to my life and rest for my soul. In doing this, I then took my eyes off of my perceived reality and placed them on the ONE that I love, Jesus Christ. The center of my reality changed to Jesus being my focal point and in that I no longer had to look back or sideways or anyways. I only had to look at Him and just keep walking, step by step; knowing His ways are perfect and His timing is perfect.
Are any of you at that place where your expectations have set the course for your life? Do you take your cues from what the world says? Do you wonder what reason your life is even valuable? I would encourage you to turn and look. Look carefully at what you perceive to be failure. Look closely at what you may perceive to be a path of insignificance. Look deeply at what appears to be a life without purpose. Look, look and look again.
Then turn your gaze away from all of that and live your life in union with Christ. Turn all your expectations unto Him and trust. The answer is simple, very simple. My five-year plan did not pan out. My own dreams left me empty. I was suddenly faced with the ultimate place of trust – I seemingly have nothing. Here I sit, with not much to do or say but in the stillness and in the silence, I see Him calling to me to trust and walk one step at a time into a new place. This is reality. This is real. This is true. None of us have arrived and if you have not experienced this, you will, perhaps you have, or you may even be going through it. In all sincerity and honesty, I am tired of so many Christians unwilling to admit that they are lost and wandering even in their salvation. It’s time to get real and true.
I do not want spiritual platitudes from people that are hyper spiritual. I am not discouraged so I don’t need cutesy pictures sent to me showing me that God loves me. I am looking long and hard at the reality of my life and I see dreams forming again. I have stopped questioning the past for there are no answers there as to why things did or did not happen. AND I don’t know what the future holds so I just walk.
Each of you – let’s get real. It’s so darn easy to hide nowadays and I refuse to do that…so share your story briefly with me and be honest. If you can’t, then don’t say anything at all. It’s best that way. Reality in Christ sets the course for our life. His ways are glorious and full of light and life. He is our life.