I am in the Ultimate Blog Challenge where I write for 30 days straight in my blog. I joined it because it is the right time for my blog and ministry, Rivers of Eden. Join me on this spiritual journey for the month of October. My focus is simple and it came through an ‘aha’ moment where I suddenly thought, after 30 years of ‘doing’ Christianity, it is now my time to ‘be” Christianity. I know, I know, the choice of words is off and a bit cliché, but you get the picture right?
Here’s a quote to get this journey off and running:
“Do one thing everyday that scares you.” Eleanor Roosevelt
Crap, that quote alone scares me for it catapults me into the midst of uncertainty. Do you know what births boring and mundane Christianity? Certainty in anything other than the reality of Jesus Christ. When you are so certain that you become a self-righteous robot who speaks without truly knowing the person of Christ. Christianity is about risk, adventure and relationship in Christ. So I am doing something scary right here, right now – getting out of the boat, walking on the water to Him, and speaking forth with honesty from my imperfect life.
I am a follower of Jesus Christ, a disciple of His life and His teachings. I love the Bible, I truly do. That is my BE. Now I will venture away from what I can only describe as my DO of Christianity into the great unknown. How to DO Christianity the wrong way? Assume a perfect position and put that mask of “having it all together” on for all to see, week by week by week. Don’t let anyone see the real you; that you are human and strive for perfection at times and thereby fall into a deep well of self-loathing because you actually dislike how you are, what you look like, or how you were designed. Do busy by immersing yourself in church culture rather than walking in intimacy with the Lord, even if it means going it alone. If you feel this is sarcastic, it is not. For me, it is simple truth.
My life as a Christian minister has been stripped down to acknowledging that I am standing in the unemployment line. Is that possible? Well for me it is at this moment. I am standing without opportunity, without ministry outlets, and without a safety net underneath me. It seems all my life I thought I would get to the point of ministry and have this traveling entourage, going to the nations, preaching at conferences, and gaining a strong following. Yikes, that sounds ridiculous, but it is true. Actually today I am born again, again, to use that cliché. I am standing in the unemployment line without a ministry, as I have said, but I am willing to take the bread of life as my substance in place of food stamps. I trust Him in this new place. That previous statement about the bread was so lame but I won’t delete it. It’s me! God pulled it all away for this season, took down any props building up my ego, and then left me standing to build again with hopes and dreams for my future to BE a Christian.
So the world is a wide-open field for me and I intend to discover it anew through the eyes of Jesus. I step out to BE in Him. What has Jesus brought to me? Books, books and more books. I am reading voraciously .I exit my cloistered life of charismatic culture and read and glean and listen and grow. And, that is how I found this quote for the first time in a book My Year with Eleanor by Noelle Hancock. I am devouring it, along with many others, reading about imperfection, failure, success and life. I am also going to use a lot of quotes this next 30 days that are opening my eyes.
I pray you journey with me as I journey with Jesus Christ for the next 30 days and let’s see where it goes. My desire – eyes open wider to see with compassion, ears to hear the cries of people’s hearts, and a life that is willing to stop on the journey to experience life at a new level. I want to do something scary each day, led by the Spirit. And, I believe I will. Onward.