I am not defined by what I do in life. The sooner I learn that, the better I will be. Years ago, ministry was driving me into a Christian template of doing it all and to be defined by its form or function. I was too serious and intense about everything, striving with perfect perfectionism. You know what I mean don’t you? God has gifted me with discernment and a strong prophetic gift. Yet, the gift took precedence over the person of Christ. Like an employee of the Lord, I felt on-call to perform at all times. I measured my success through how many people came to hear me speak, how many compliments I received on the accuracy of the prophetic gift, and even how many people came forward for an altar call.
Somehow I wanted to be important so I became intense in my approach to ministry. The drive that surrounded me flowed through my life in stress and conflict. Where was rest? Well, there wasn’t any to be quite honest. I learned a lot over the years. Doing does flow from being. Do it the other way around and you will never find that place of rest in Christ.
God formed me to be adventurous, passionate and on the move in life. I thrive on change in every way. Yet, to purge me of the DO I had to learn to BE. So the Father’s hand came down on my life and restrained me in order to purge me of all fleshly possibility in my own wisdom. I did learn the lesson and I continue to learn many lessons. Have you ever read The Harness of the Lord by Bill Britton? It’s a great read and it aptly describes my life, and quite possibly yours too. Please read if you have the time.
I do love our ministry, Rivers of Eden, traveling and preaching, seeing people healed and set free. But, when priorities get out of whack and doing ministry takes precedence over relationship with the Lord, you lose something in life. What is it that you lose? Well, here’s a story that I read in a book by Francis Frangipane. It will answer that question.
Ministry became overwhelming and invasive in Francis’s life, taking his time and energy. One day someone in the church told him that they had received a prophetic word for him from the Lord. They wanted to give him the word in person so arranged a meeting. When the gentleman got there, Francis waited to see what the Lord was going to say to him. The gentleman came in, sat down and said, “God told me to tell you this, ‘Francis, I miss you.’” Selah.
Jeremiah 31:3 3 “Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love; Therefore with loving-kindness I have drawn you.” NKJV