When you declare that risk and change are the new normal in your life, be prepared to see that statement challenged. So it goes with me. And you? I know some of you out there can relate.
As I write, I write about prophetic lifestyle. I don’t believe that to speak for God, one has to always say, “I the Lord say this” or “Thus saith the Lord”. Or to go on and on about what I believe God is saying, hoping the repetition somehow adds validity to the statement I am making. Or to qualify every statement with “God told me” or “I heard from God”. I am going to speak out of the flow of my prophetic life. Yes, I live a prophetic life, which means that Marvin and I follow the flow of Holy Spirit. I speak what I walk. I walk what I speak.
So our new normal is risk and change. I said it. I believe it. And, I still believe it even though our trip to San Diego yesterday did not pan out – nothing, nada, nothing – every door closed on every place we looked to rent. So, what do I do? I was soooooo discouraged but a little sleep and a bit of time of just looking at God saying “Okay, what now? Do you realize that we have only 2-3 weeks left to move?”
I always sense His smile even when I am a bit askew, out of sorts or out of sync. I am walking in change and risking it all to follow Him. There is no plan B. There is no turning back. So San Diego only produced a long ride through hellish LA traffic to spend hours riding around looking for that perfect place. Not a perfect place on the outside. That perfect place that just glows and God says “Settle here. I have a work for you to do here, right here.”
I can’t go the normal route or what I used to do. Remember what I wrote yesterday:
Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. Albert Einstein
And then there is Kenya, our upcoming trip that keeps getting pressed back each month. Right after I declare the new normal is about risk and change – $2200 in car repairs. I know many of you know what I mean. Okay, I am still smiling through it all. I really am. But, reality does set in hard and then it is necessary for me to rise above the reality to see the promise and hold it tight.
A hard decision was made. At this time, we simply can’t afford to go to Kenya unless we get a miracle in the realm of finances. I once heard John Eckhart say, “The apostolic/prophetic funds itself.” That is true. All along this journey, after years of walking in ministry, we rarely get donations. God always seems to finance these trips through a raise, a promotion in job, and other ways. We will not beg, hype things up, or coerce. I can’t do that. I have never done that and I won’t start now. (Here’s a little aside. I am human you know with feelings. Over the years, we give and give and give to many many people. There I said it. It’s true. A lot of seeds sown but not a lot of harvest. Many walked away or stole from us, yet we forgive and walk on. This small testimony is just the tip of the iceberg. I am not one to major on this or rant and rave but sometimes I need to say it to be authentic and truthful about this side of our Christianity.)
So what does God do now? Three hours back in that hellish traffic of LA and I am totally disgruntled. I am sitting in the car, marveling at why anyone wants to live here and suffer this commute. Griping inside and complaining, I get a full-fledged vision. (God’s grace, grace, grace.) Did I just say, “God said”? Didn’t I say above I don’t like that or don’t do that to qualify my own heart? Well yes and no. I saw a vision, which is common for me. I take these visions to heart. And, the vision is from God. Here goes.
I saw Marvin like Joseph and me like Mary, wandering, pregnant to the max with possibility after a long long year of a mundane walk in pregnancy. We wandered here, there and everywhere, looking for some place to stay. No where. We tried going every possible route to birth this baby but all we met with were doors slammed in our face and a lot of:
“There’s no room.”
“What did you say your name was?”
“Where are your credentials, your resumes?”
“Who’s your covering?”
“Who did you say you were?”
Well the prophetic is now syncing with our reality. In other words, we are walking what we are talking. We are the message right now. So, stay tuned. There is more coming.
I am so pregnant (only spiritually folks, my kiddos are 31 and 34). So pregnant, Christ forming and moving in me, ready to birth that which has been prophesied over me for a long time. But, now there is no room for us at the inn, physically or spiritually.
So what to do?
We search for our ‘stable’ where we expect wise men and shepherds to visit us. Africa is on the back burner but only temporarily………the promise does not die.
More coming. Another trip to San Diego in the next few days…I know this is where God wants us. He will supply. Love you guys.
Rivers of Eden Ministry – God breathed this into my life many years ago. I have tried to define it with the typical Christianese language. I can’t. All I know is that our heart’s cry is to focus on Christ, the Tree of Life – to show forth His grace and flow in His glory wherever we are sent. Holy Spirit flows through us (Marvin and I), in creative expression, through preaching, teaching, prophetic flow – people are healed and set free. Divine connections are the norm for us. We go where God leads us – wherever and whenever He wants us to go. Christ in me, the hope of glory. Now, I am ready to move out again. Our first place – Kenya, August 18-September 2, 2014 (God willing with a clear miracle) . Contact us on Facebook or Twitter. God may want to lead us your way – to your home group, church, gathering.