I’m looking at the horizon – a sense of purpose stretches out before me. My path is ordered in Christ in Holy Spirit. How to start? God always seems to put audio messages, You Tube videos, books and other things into my life when I need to hear something specific. When I listen, the message grabs me as if it is spoken to me alone. Life flows into my spirit as I listen to the words being spoken, images shown or music flowing. They reach deep into my being with a life all their own. Jesus says it this way.
It is the Spirit who gives life; the flesh profits nothing. The words that I speak to you are spirit, and they are life.
He speaks and His words are life – to us. And……He speak through many different venues, in diverse and creative ways……..to each of us.
The message of my life is intertwined with the ministry that God is birthing within me, Rivers of Eden. (More on that in the coming week.) I am a walking message, filled with His life and glory, the creative expression of Christ. This is how He creates His life through me, and also through each of you. I listened to TD Jakes as He said:
“You are called to BE the highest and best expression of who you are created to be (in Christ).”
That has been my spiritual mandate for years. Yet, while deep inside I knew it, I did not adequately believe it. So, for years we have ministered in lack – lack of finances, lack of ministry, and a deep down lack of belief tha this ministry is in Jesus Christ. I see that now.
Another great quote from Jakes:
“People have attached to you their own need and you have morphed yourself to respond to these needs and circumstances. It now takes times to find out who you are again. Who are you apart from the applause, the approvals or the indictments (and rejections)? In the second half of your life, do YOU.”
Then here it came……….”You need the strength to birth again.”
Those words shot through me like a sword, dividing lies from truth to conquer my heart – all the lies I believed, all the wasted time, all the control, the dead ends….I am tired.
Too tired to birth, yet carrying a spiritual baby within my being. I need strength to birth again.
What keeps me from bearing down and giving birth? I believe I finally get it. The pain of the past, the experiences, all the crap enhanced with lies from the enemy, pummel my life on a daily basis. “You are a fraud and once they see who you really are, you are nothing.” That tormented my soul for years, somehow believing that despite what God placed in me, due to years of mistakes, I am now disqualified.
In feeling disqualified, I did not actually believe or expose the greatness, creativity and anointing of my Lord through my life. I shut down and then wondered why I was invisible or forgotten. The bottom line, when realized, is simple to understand.
If I don’t expose what I have inside of me, what I am called to do for Christ in this life, then how will anyone know, truly know me and Rivers of Eden?
“How can you expect people to empower what you will not expose? In order to expose what you have inside of you, you’ve got to believe what He put down deep inside of you.”
First and foremost, the revelation of Christ in me, the hope of glory, is growing within my being. Flowing out, it flows in a ministry named Rivers of Eden, the ministry God will birth through myself and Marvin and a team that joins up with us as we go to the nations in this new season. I can say that in faith now, realizing that when God begins a good work in you, He will complete it.
This is the exact season for me. Thinking that I was invisible and forgotten, I denied the very God who loves me and calls me, fulfills His dream in and through my life. I see. My eyes are open and I see.
Life is calling me out…….I don’t have the full picture but the horizon is in view and I am walking…………I feel strength within me to birth. There is so much more coming forth. Enjoy!