Summer in Wyoming – A time of recalibration, re-creation and re-invention

This is a summer where I’ve spent 2 months in Wyoming with my husband who had a short-term job as senior construction manager in Rawlins, WY.

God ordained this special time. I call it my summer of creation. It’s interesting as to how it developed into a transition between where we were and where we’re going.

Panorama WYI marvel at the beauty of Wyoming.  Sincere thanks to our friends Charlene and Johnny and their fantastic all-terrain vehicle which took us high up in the mountains to truly be immersed in silence and the beauty of God’s creation.

I stopped writing this summer as God simply said to me “This is a summer of watching, observing. Just flow with Me.” Now I am ready to BE again, to write more and to walk in the beauty and glory of Christ Jesus.

What He’s purged out of me is to be in the mix or to be in the forefront of anything. To be a bit obscure and hidden in Rawlins- small quiet town. To watch Him as He watches me and gives me this summer to recalibrate, re-invent and co-create with Him for the next part of our journey.

Debra

In Christ,
Debra

Moments of Retreat – Silence…Please

ListenYesterday, as I sat in my living room I listened to the silence. It whispered to me.

“Enter into a time of meditation with Christ Jesus.”

Moments of retreat I like to call them. Times of saturation while soaking in His presence. Each day, sometimes 15 minutes, sometimes 2 hours, I worship and pray. What’s important here is quality not quantity. This is not a hurried place. It is a place of a deep flow into my spirit.

Soaking – a modern word meaning to just BE with Him, without agenda, without time constraints.

Moment by moment, I am aware that in the silence there is a depth of revelation that is imparted to me just to BE me. In being, I understand my identity in Christ. His revelation to me in moments of retreat radiates into every cell of my being. He holds all things together, and that includes me.

Your (My) old life is dead. Your (My) new life, which is your (My) real life––even though invisible to spectators––is with Christ in God. He is your (My) life. Colossians 3:3 Message

How often are you busy, too busy to spend time with the Lord? No guilt here, none at all. Just a spiritual challenge, which will greatly enhance your life.

Are you on the go, prioritizing things in your busy life that will have no eternal significance…none at all? Consider taking time to retreat each day. Let Holy Spirit lead the way.

Before He called me apart yesterday, I felt frazzled and hurried. Questions assaulted my mind, trying to create distraction and confusion about my life.

“Where is this all going?”

“What’s next?”

“Where do I go from here?’

Tension seemed to rise in me like a wave that wanted to draw me down into its power. I felt insignificant in light of what I saw others doing. In comparing myself to others, I lost a sense of purpose in those moments and fear set in. This can often happen after an anointed, awesome time of ministry as we had in Poland last week.

My observation? I see so many trying to make themselves be seen, or heard, or noticed. Lives flowing in their own strength, trying to be in the mix and out there so as not to be forgotten. Post after post on social media. Constant interaction to affirm their identity to be someone in someplace doing something to boost their own sense of being.

But what about the silence? That’s the place of testing and trust. Can I be still in the silence, knowing that God Himself is orchestrating my life while I seemingly do nothing but worship? Yes, He does work on our behalf. There’s the beauty of it all. His ways are not our ways.

It is in these moments of retreat, I realize that I am known by the One who calls me to come apart. He knows me yet I don’t always know “Me” in Christ. To come away in times of quiet and prayer, I find myself in Christ. My life settles into worship and that constant tension within me that pulls me, trying to form me into the image of the world is silenced.

In Christ, there is an exchanged life. Unless I soak in that reality, I am tossed here and there upon the waves of the world’s chaos. This exchanged life is Christ in me, me in Christ…………my life hidden in Christ Jesus. My identity, my purpose and my destiny are in Christ. He draws us away to call us to Himself to BE ourselves.

Just BeI am brought into time by the hand of God, placed in my mother’s womb significantly and specifically. Think about that when chaos rules your life or worry is your default. If you feel out of sync with your own life, I call you into the deep away from shallow waters.

“Before I shaped you in the womb, I knew all about you.. Jeremiah 1:5 Message

Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out; you formed me in my mother’s womb. I thank you, High God––you’re breathtaking! Body and soul, I am marvelously made! I worship in adoration––what a creation! You know me inside and out, you know every bone in my body; You know exactly how I was made, bit-by-bit, how I was sculpted from nothing into something. Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth; all the stages of my life were spread out before you, the days of my life all prepared before I’d even lived one day. Psalms 139:13-16 Message

Enter into a time of silence. All else fades in comparison to the clarity you will encounter when you spend time alone with Jesus.

Look around. There is so much excessive movement among followers of Christ. Seeking validation in so many things and in so many ways.

This is what stirred in me yesterday so I want to encourage each of you today. Sitting alone in the silence, He knows me, knows everything about me. My life is in His hands. There is fullness in being still. The enemy knows this and tries every trick up his sleeve to keep me busy. Avoid that trap. More can be settled or apprehended in one hour with Jesus that most people can do in one full day.

Stillness imparts deep revelation of significance to the inner life. That is desperately needed among this young generation of Jesus followers. I challenge you to unplug and spend time with Jesus. He waits for you in that secret place.

It’s the stillness that births identity. Remember that. Take some time to BE with Him.

Debra

 

In Christ,
Debra
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God Whispers – Don’t Run With It Just Yet – Take Time To Be Still

Man in SunlightDiscernment – to be still,to know. God whispers. Something is revealed to you by the Father. God whispers glorious truths to us as we spend time with Him as any Father/Child would do.

How to value the words, the whispers? Sometimes speaking and sometimes not speaking what has been shown to you.

What God has revealed to us sometimes should just stay with us rather than sounding it forth. So many premature revelations sound forth without the appropriate time to settle, stir, grow, and expand within us. Everyone seems to be talking, talking talking. I do believe we all need a divine selah to pause and reflect. In this, wisdom grows in timing and grace so that when we speak, our words sound forth with authenticity, grace and power.

DebraIn Christ
Debra

Selah – To Pause and To Praise in the Midst of the Chaos

Pause ButtonSelah – pause and calmly think about it. Selah – pause to carefully weigh the meaning of what we have just heard and read.  To praise. To lift up. To praise.

To pause and to praise.

You are my hiding place; You shall preserve me from trouble; You shall surround me with songs of deliverance. Selah (Psalms 32:7 NKJV)

God is our refuge and strength,a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, even though the earth be removed, and though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea; though its waters roar and be troubled, though the mountains shake with its swelling. Selah (Psalms 46:1-3 NKJV)

Trust in Him at all times, you people; Pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us. Selah (Psalms 62:8 NKJVS)

In a world of constant contradictions, there is a place of safety and rest in Christ Jesus who is our peace.

As culture implodes from within, crashing down amidst a diversity of unique challenges, there is wisdom in Christ Jesus.

Anger, division, chaos, anxiety, and worry  like a turbulent whirlwind swirling around lives trapped in hopelessness, despair and confusion. There is a way, truth and life in Christ Jesus.

Pause Shoes by OceanAs a nation, we are in desperate need of a divine selah, a divine pause to reflect rather than react. Who is God in all this unrest? How do I see this through the lens of Christ Jesus rather than my own sense of entitlement or vindication? Who are you God, in the midst of all that is going down before our eyes? What we see happening is just the tip of the iceberg, the initial stages of a volcano beginning to roar and spew forth lava, the divine unsettling silence before a massive earthquake,  or a warning system of a large tsunami ready to hit the shore?

People of every color, race, and gender, shame, blame and level charges at one another, talking but often not really listening. Their words flow from an inner ocean of emotional upheaval and distress. The outward flow is the result of deep inner turmoil of the heart. A nation that needs Christ. A world that needs Jesus.

Since returning to the United States from living overseas for many years, I see a country imploding from within itself. I also know that the answer is Christ Jesus. This nation is ripe for a spiritual awakening. Christians bear the burden of a divine responsibility to walk in the wisdom of heaven and to preach Christ. Christians are an opposing force to the flow of hatred and confusion as Holy Spirit guides our lives to impact the environment God has placed us in. Christians walk in the way, the truth and the life in Christ Jesus.

Our problems are complex residing deeply in the heart of man/woman. There is no simple, quick and easy answer in the world. No politician or political system, no social or economic answers will ease the pain or establish peace. They are part of the answer but our only answer is an awakening unto Christ Jesus – His salvation, His love, His mercy.

Many will continue to thrash around, looking for solutions and answers. Yet, I see a tangled mess that is only getting messier by the moment.  That answer is Christ Jesus. It’s really quite simple. From the reality of who He is there will flow wisdom, revelation, and peace.

So the only question to ask ourselves is simple. What would you have me do Jesus? In this place I am, this city I live, this metron you choose for me. How do I live, move and have my being in your creative expression in Christ Jesus?

Our answers turn us back inward on ourselves, Christ in me, the hope of glory. This is not some distant problem that we shut out as soon as the TV is turned off. It is our problem and we bear the responsibility to BE Christians so that the world may see Christ Jesus living, moving and having His being through our lives. What will I do? Personal responsibility.

DebraIn Christ,
Debra

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Creative Expression – Time For Some Action, Don’t Ya’ Think?

“Words, words, words, I’m so sick of words. I get words all day through, first from him, now from you. Is that all you blighters can do? Don’t talk of love burning above. If you’re in love, show me. Tell me no dreams, filled with desire. If you’re on fire, show me.” My Fair Lady

Words Words WordsEliza Doolittle sang this song in My Fair Lady. She basically says “If you’re in love show me.” She confronts her beau’s excessive words which express his love for her, by exclaiming that words alone won’t cut it. There is not enough expressed and manifested action to back up the words. Like Christianity in many ways, don’t you think? At least that is what I think for my life today in my own Christianity.

Let me continue to connect the dots for you in this blog post. Follow along by reading this verse.

20 For the kingdom of God is not in word but in power. (1 Corinthians 4:20 NKJV)

I have been on one heck of a journey in my Christianity. Haven’t we all? After years of performing in religion and more years after that, I run from so much word based Christianity that I can’t see any movement of the Spirit. In case we have to remind ourselves, Christianity is formed in the word (the Living Word) and the Spirit. Both are necessary to be formed for a life in the Spirit. The kingdom – talk and walk.

I read this post by Sarah Bessey yesterday and I saw so much of my own feelings in it that I want to share it here. I loved her post. We may differ in many ways but the foundation of her thoughts seem to line up with my own beliefs.

I lost something. I am getting it back. I have been saying that for some time now but each day things get clearer and clearer to me.

Facebook is glutted with excessive words. So I went down my feed and simply unfriended many people, not out of anger or any emotion. I just don’t see the point anymore. There are so many words out there. Grace people, prophetic people, evangelical people, and more and more. As I have said before, my weariness in all of it has reached a point where I just want to be free from it all. Hence the need to purge my list and to be me, even if me is the only one listening to me or reading me. That’s good enough. I am not blogging to convery some irrelevant ideas but to share my life, walking down a path of life, that is taking me somewhere in Him, Jesus Christ.

Since when has Christianity built up on words and words alone? On understanding or needing to be understood? Since when has truth been deconstructed to a message packaged to meet the needs of people or to make them feel comfortable or more secure? Since when? The life of Jesus was so messy. He walked around making everyone feel uncomfortable but yet so unconditionally loved if they would take it.

I love life. I am a passionate adult. I was a passionate child. I am giving up all justification and explanation as to why I feel the way I do about some things. That hinders growth. That is also for treatises, or discourses and this is but a mere blog. I am a woman of the word and I seem to avoid speaking of my experiences or my life in the Spirit because I still fear that I will seem flaky. Hey, I am quirky but not flaky. And the way I see it, I am in good company with many other quirky people in Scripture.

What happened? I remember some years back going to Italy and just walking the streets of Rome, praying, praying and praying led by the Spirit. Or what about that Detroit trip that I took years ago where the Spirit led me into places and meeting people that made me feel like I was in the book of Acts. There were many more trips and so much grace and glory. What happened?

I feel this constant tension in me that I am learning to live with day by day. Great tension blog.

I still feel that I am being deconstructed to get to the basic of Debra’s. Great deconstruction blog.

I am leaving all the camps. The grace camp, the evangelical camp, the Baptist camp, the Pentecostal camp, the prophetic camp. I am not starting my own. Haha! I am detoxing from it all and looking at Jesus and learning of Him by the Spirit in this season. I am not anti-church. We are looking for one right now, a community in which to share our life and to bring life to others.

Why leave the camps? Because it’s the same ole’ same ole. All these grace guys….just that. All the guys…..need I say more. No woman. Hmmmm, I’ll stop there. God will make a way to get past that stuff. I love them.

The prophetic camp. I still love them. I am part of that quirky stuff, seen by many as detrimental to the health of all Christianity. Yet, I won’t be part of the incessant crying out for more, devaluing my positions and experiences in Christ.

I am generalizing, not judging, all of this but I know you get the picture. I feel inside myself there is still a tension, a God ordained tension, breaking the membrane of my limited vision and helping me to see again with new vision. I am fighting to find my voice amidst a world with lots of noise. It is essential for me and you to find our voice. What if we don’t? Well, I guess then I can spend my life on Facebook liking all the iconic people who simply say one sentence and get 100-500 likes. I can become a groupie who may only parrot ideas rather than voice internal conviction. A bit of sarcasm perhaps? I don’t mean to, but it is true.

I am not fighting for individuality at the expense of peace or rest but I am seeking my brand in Christ. I am seeing myself in Christ alone. That is not contrary to grace or an add on to dilute its message. Had it not been for grace, I would not be at this place of awareness? I am living in tension, yet in rest.

Just a bit more of my ramblings here. Tension is a good thing. Tension blog again. I am not at war within myself. It’s just so darn easy to fit in… and to be part of a rising template of clones. I can’t do that and yet I don’t see myself as rebellious. I am in the fight of my life, in a good way, of course.

I was called to be a prophet. I did not want to say that out of shame, guilt and condemnation by others. So, in not at least saying it at times, I lived in a loss of identity, trying to latch on to anything but not really fitting in. Yet how can I deny that night and that experience, that voice of God to me? I can’t deny that experience of being called as my reality.  Today is my breaking out, not breaking bad. Haha- could not resist that.

I am called as a prophet but I have no platform to speak so I speak to myself, declare to the heavens, and write. II walked through wilderness training, being healed and set free in many ways. I have walked one step close to a line of humiliation and misunderstanding most of my life. The fight to fit in has almost killed me. Where does this take me? Well just saying it sets me free to be who God called me to be. I am a Debra in Christ, not Debbie, Deb or Deborah. Great post here below.

Onward and upward.

In Christ, Debra

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