Strength To Birth

Blue GlobeTurning – this blog is turning. This week I’ll impart a sense of turning as I write. I believe many reading this are walking the same path as Marvin and I. Will you follow me on this journey of life?

I’m looking at the horizon – a sense of purpose stretches out before me. My path is ordered in Christ in Holy Spirit. How to start? God always seems to put audio messages, You Tube videos, books and other things into my life when I need to hear something specific. When I listen, the message grabs me as if it is spoken to me alone. Life flows into my spirit as I listen to the words being spoken, images shown or music flowing. They reach deep into my being with a life all their own. Jesus says it this way.

John 6:63
It is the Spirit who gives life; the flesh profits nothing. The words that I speak to you are spirit, and they are life.

He speaks and His words are life – to us. And……He speak through many different venues, in diverse and creative ways……..to each of us.

Instinct, a book by TD Jakes is life to me in this season. I listened to this online message over and over and over.

The message of my life is intertwined with the ministry that God is birthing within me, Rivers of Eden. (More on that in the coming week.) I am a walking message, filled with His life and glory, the creative expression of Christ. This is how He creates His life through me, and also through each of you. I listened to TD Jakes as He said:

“You are called to BE the highest and best expression of who you are created to be (in Christ).”

That has been my spiritual mandate for years. Yet, while deep inside I knew it, I did not adequately believe it. So, for years we have ministered in lack – lack of finances, lack of ministry, and a deep down lack of belief tha this ministry is in Jesus Christ. I see that now.

Another great quote from Jakes:

“People have attached to you their own need and you have morphed yourself to respond to these needs and circumstances. It now takes times to find out who you are again. Who are you apart from the applause, the approvals or the indictments (and rejections)? In the second half of your life, do YOU.”

Then here it came……….”You need the strength to birth again.”

Those words shot through me like a sword, dividing lies from truth to conquer my heart – all the lies I believed, all the wasted time, all the control, the dead ends….I am tired.

Too tired to birth, yet carrying a spiritual baby within my being. I need strength to birth again.

What if I flyWhat keeps me from bearing down and giving birth? I believe I finally get it. The pain of the past, the experiences, all the crap enhanced with lies from the enemy, pummel my life on a daily basis. “You are a fraud and once they see who you really are, you are nothing.” That tormented my soul for years, somehow believing that despite what God placed in me, due to years of mistakes, I am now disqualified.

In feeling disqualified, I did not actually believe or expose the greatness, creativity and anointing of my Lord through my life. I shut down and then wondered why I was invisible or forgotten. The bottom line, when realized, is simple to understand.

If I don’t expose what I have inside of me, what I am called to do for Christ in this life, then how will anyone know, truly know me and Rivers of Eden?

“How can you expect people to empower what  you will not expose? In order to expose what you have inside of you, you’ve got to believe what He put down deep inside of you.”

First and foremost, the revelation of Christ in me, the hope of glory, is growing within my being. Flowing out, it flows in a ministry named Rivers of Eden, the ministry God will birth through myself and Marvin and a team that joins up with us as we go to the nations in this new season. I can say that in faith now, realizing that when God begins a good work in you, He will complete it.

This is the exact season for me. Thinking that I was invisible and forgotten, I denied the very God who loves me and calls me, fulfills His dream in and through my life. I see. My eyes are open and I see.

Life is calling me out…….I don’t have the full picture but the horizon is in view and I am walking…………I feel strength within me to birth. There is so much more coming forth. Enjoy!

10511315_794327653940721_886065626280149819_nIn Christ,
Debra Westbrook

To Infinity and Beyond

TD Jakes – whenever I want to be motivated and kicked in the butt with a challenge, I listen to TD Jakes. He has the innate ability and anointing to express, with great love, the need to look at oneself and change, accepting all my imperfections and failures and KNOW – God is indeed good, very very very good. My quote of the week:

“Don’t write the memoirs of pain and agony, writing from the REAR VIEW window.” TD Jakes

Rear View Mirror SkySo, here it is. One day before we actually do the pack up and move – I feel great. It is not a ‘great’ that is motivated by false assumptions or vain imaginations of what could be based on fear. It is a ‘great’ that is filled with the reality of how good and faithful God is.

I can’t look in the rear view mirror any more. Gazing at the past with some sorrow, great disillusionment, and deep discouragement at times. This woman is moving on. It has been so busy that despite my love of blogging, I found time itself to be at a premium with the move. So, I did not sit down to write BUT I have so much stirring in me that next week, revelation and thoughts and stuff will be coming your way.

It’s time to move past blogging angst – writing of pain, sorrow, disillusionment, etc. I know that may help people at times but what helps more is a revelation of Jesus Christ and the truth in His promises to us. No writing about unanswered questions that still remain unanswered – done. Moving on past blogging about the pain, the anger, and the sorrow. Moving into Christ and the hope that fills me with such expectation that I can hardly breathe at times. Moving with Christ into a future that is promised to me because He is faithful to complete what He started in me. Moving through revelation that helps me walk day by day, one step at a time into adventure and challenge and LIFE, unedited.

Where have I been these past years? Trying to be everything to everybody. I was whooping and hollering along with TD Jakes all the way from Ventura to Valencia last night. Amening and believing it 100% – accepting the reality of my life in Christ.

Rear View MirrorI used to be filled with passion and positivity and great faith. When I found myself talking more about my past, I realized that something in me stalled and died. When I realized that I blogged about the intricacies of introspection, I realized that is not always the way I want to go. As a mother, grandmother and daughter of the King, my job is to love you and to challenge many of you to keep moving. These blogs will not always sound oooshy and gooshy with love, but they will sound forth with love that is solid and believes in the reality of Christ within a person to live in an abundant life, despite any outward circumstances that drag one down.

Like TD says (paraphrasing here) – you can live in the ghetto but you don’t have to think like the ghetto. I have not lived in any ghetto but I lived in a prison in my own mind that limited and restricted me to the opinions of others along with the guilt and condemnation that comes from the past.

When we leave Valencia tomorrow, it’s almost September, the 9th month – a birthing month. For me, spiritual birthing. That could explain why I have been in a bad mood for the past 5 years. I am carrying a baby that is long overdue to be birthed. I found my birthing room in Christ, outside the walls, outside of institutional Christianity, at least for now. There is spiritual significance in the move taking place right now. I will not be looking in the rear view mirror any more. When I do that, I can’t see the future.

Buzz LightyearSometimes when I want to detox from all the crap that comes with being an adult, I watch Disney – Finding Nemo, Toy Story, Madagascar and more. Okay, I do it a lot, not just sometimes.  There’s something that brings you into the beauty of reality when you look through the eyes of a child. This kept coming to mind today. “To infinity and beyond.”  Would you believe the Holy Spirit brought this one to me? God is indeed very very good. My trajectory is changed, catapulting into the great unknown,  infinitely filled with possibilities in Christ. It’s all good. Enjoy the next season of this journey with me.

In Christ,
Debra Westbrook