What’s In Your House? – Creativity

images-1I keep hearing this one verse over and over this past week. I am standing in this place of revelation in Christ Jesus, in union with Him, and it seems I deeply know that this next step will be revealed by looking at who is in me, rather than what flows out of me. The being first and then the doing. For a long time, I have believed this down to the depth of my being. Now what to do? It seems that so much out there is redundant, a remix of things, and just a glut of information and images. Then I hear this verse. But, I also see this verse before me.

2 Kings 4:2 Elisha said, “I wonder how I can be of help. Tell me, what do you have in your house?” “Nothing,” she said. “Well, I do have a little oil. The Message

Jesus seems to be asking me the same question, “What do you have in your house?” I desperately want something new and fresh to creatively express who He is. I don’t want the same ole’ same ole’ thing. But how to do it?  “What do you have in your house? What’s in you Debra to be My creative expression?”

Kelsey Quin_quote 12My answer. “I don’t know yet Lord. I am not sure yet but I see something coming but I can’t quite put a finger on it yet. It is creatively expressing who you are through my life. How? I am not sure. I can feel it. I can almost see it and touch it and taste it BUT it is not formed yet, so I wait and watch and move out one step at a time.”

Look around. The world is glutted with words, images, books, conferences, thoughts, opinions, and more. At times it makes me want to retreat as far away from everything that I can get because I am weary of taking it all in. Just look at Facebook. My wall is glutted with Christian thoughts, pictures, sayings, and more. So what to do? Only what the Holy Spirit says to do and then He will lead the way. A different form, this shift – it is here and yet, I am without words to describe it BUT I will know it and then do it.

Not doing church the same way. But how? Creatively. This young generation thrives on visual explosion and so it goes. How to do it? Creatively and outside the box. That is where Finland comes into play with our team there. That is where California comes into play as we also live here. The young generation thrives on authenticity, honesty, visual expression, and relationship, just to name a few things. The church tries to create this with Power point productions, dramas, and cutting edge light shows, worship teams ablaze in images, and messages that seem a bit redundant at times. Yet, in the midst of it all, I still see a shallow mediocrity hidden in all the ‘stuff’. So I often wonder what great innovators do as they think through ideas and imaginations? How do they translate what is in their heart into reality? Let’s see what time brings my way. This blog – processing thoughts right now and not drawing conclusions. So, you are all part of my process.

There’s Got To Be More – Speaking From Outside The Walls

images-11 The reality of ‘coming out’, there are good days and there are bad days in the realm of your emotions. Perhaps you may be thinking ‘Then why did she leave?” Or you may be thinking, “I can relate to that”. Or you may be thinking nothing at all; just listening because deep inside of you, you are thinking “There’s got to be more to Christianity than what I am seeing or feeling”.

“There’s got to be more.” That is exactly what catapulted us outside the walls. Please read my first post to follow along more clearly. It will give you greater understanding in why I am writing all of this, at this time. I am going through this time of transition with the end in sight of a new fresh day for Rivers of Eden and us.

Just because you are out of a formed and formatted church environment, does not mean you are home free to complain, to whine, to gripe, to be angry or to be bitter over what was done to you or what you experienced. My other blog is dealing with forgiveness and going forward in freedom and wholeness.

During this time, God was dealing with my heart, going deep into my heart. He was unveiling not only the outward emotional tirades and passions but the inner motives of pain and woundedness that needed healing. None of us have arrived. We all go through something. Let me give you some examples. This blog may be a bit longer so please follow along with my gut level honesty.

The times of aloneness that we found ourselves in were quite painful. They were wilderness times in our life. These were times where, day-by-day, we were being presented with the same question from God. “Am I enough?” Some days He was, and some days He was not to me. This is a test in fire for our lives. Some days the pain was so hard that I cried for long intervals. But, but, but going back into the form of church never was an option for us. That had been put to rest. Going back into a form and a religious format, void of presence and spontaneity of the Spirit, was not an option for Marvin or me.

bookThe reality though was that I even felt alone in the midst of the congregation before we even stepped outside of it. Loneliness is prevalent today among many Christians. Religion builds a shallow foundation dependent on outward display and the heart is never touched or freed to BE in Christ. People go through the motions week by week just to perform some religious routine, yet they are empty inside and wounded and hurting. Go into many churches. There are needs based messages abounding. That keeps the church very immature. Rarely does one see the reality of Christ in union with YOU being preached. I am not against the church. I am for Christ and the beauty of His movements in and through His people, following and listening to Holy Spirit in organic form and flow.

There also often came great rejection from people thinking we were rebellious or completely wacky and insane. Many believed we were angry and independent. Let me say this, loud and clear. I was angry. Anger was something God was dealing with in my life. I am not angry now. We would have left the church form anyway because it seemed so empty and shallow at times. Here is something I recently wrote on Facebook, which pretty much sums it up.

Okay many of you have gone through this but it hit us from a few angles today. The statement spoken to us: “Well it appears that you have been wounded and are still angry at the church so I will pray for you that God heal you.” Ever heard that? Not trying to start anything here.

There is a time to speak and a time to be silent. When truth hits a system, the system reacts through the same old lines of defense like the statement above spoken to many others. In reality, anything that confronts the norm is in turn confronted by statements that try to downplay the problem and to divert the attention to the speaker. Come on.

I am not angry. And I know that many of you out there are not angry either. So please stop labeling people as angry just because they say things that confront and challenge things in Christianity that are simply not working.

God was dealing with us on every level but that does not negate the simple fact that the church, in its current condition is a mess. God is dealing with the mess because of His great love for us, but that does not deny the fact that it is a mess, in need of massive reformation and restoration. So many are leaving out the doors that we have to look good and hard at the why’s of the problem. It’s quite simple. In many cases, Jesus has left the building and man is now in full control. In saying that, there is no alternative but to leave, at least for us.

jesus_center-448x220So here we are in Southern California, looking for a true place of grace and glory in a New Covenant reality environment. We don’t want 24/7 prayer, or IHOP similarities. We don’t want templates cloned after someone else’s revelation. We know what we don’t want. But, we can’t find what we want. We want to see a place that is truly a habitation for His glory. We are equippers called to move out and travel, not necessarily to build, although God may say otherwise in the future. There is a ground swell of people rising up who want the same thing. At some point in the future, connections will come quite clearly. But as for now, we wait and trust. 

Can’t See the Forest for the Trees – Speaking from Outside the Walls

life-move-on-moving-quote-Favim.com-687442.jpgMove over, move out, move around – do it and your perspective changes. Stay in one place, spiritually, emotionally, or physically and your perspective can form into a type of tunnel vision.  We all need to come out and move around in life, in some way, in some form. When I moved out, I began to see. Now, do not assume that I will never go into a ‘church setting’. If you do, you are missing the point of what I am saying in this blog. My perspective on church, along with many other things, has changed and is changing. Here’s just a few.

The Bible – This is a book that I absolutely love. I see it as a book that reveals to me the person of Christ Jesus by Holy Spirit. It has layers of understanding and revelation given to us by the Spirit as He reveals Christ to us. It is not a book to be dissected and separated in a spirit of self-righteousness, giving religious laws and rules to live  a constrained and mundane  life. It is a person giving us His life flowing through us. This book can’t even be understood apart from the Spirit of God.

Prayer – This is not a platform given to me to beg, plead, coerce or manipulate God to hear me, as if He is deaf or unconcerned. This is a place of holy communion with God by Holy Spirit where I live  in a place of oneness with Christ in me. I agree with what He has already established in His word and through His life and thereby my life. I don’t agree that we need 24/7 prayer to cry out continuously trying to break down walls that already came down when Jesus died, was resurrected and ascended into heaven seated with God and with us in heavenly places.

6353435485_09f6e2abd4_zRevival – Revival of what? Christ is in us, the hope of glory. Hoping for that one day whereby something sweeps through a nation or a people, denies the reality that Christ is in us and we are called right now to walk in revelation, power, and authority. We have it now in Christ.  This word seems to be something people love to say, write about, think about and dwell in the possibility of, rather than to BE Christ to the world right where they are in life. This word, in my opinion, keeps people chasing after speakers and conferences. This word, denies the value of true discipleship and equipping to DO for God what the Holy Spirit directs us to DO in life.

Covering – Jesus is my covering. There is no man-made covering of denomination, organization, or religious establishment. I am covered in Christ – no gender or race discrimination. Christ calls me, qualifies me and places me in Him in the Body of Christ. I need nothing else but that in my life. Through life in Christ, relationships, accountability, and community will form through Holy Spirit, not through man’s wisdom or efforts.

Church – How to say this in a few words? Church is the moving, living, flowing life of Christ through a people living and moving in their salvation in Christ. It flows in Holy Spirit order. It can meet anywhere at any time as believers gather together. It moves in the reality of Christ, His person, His headship, His works, and His life. It is not dependent on a day to meet, or a place to gather, or a denomination to cover. Holy Spirit integrates us in the life of Christ as people gather of one accord in the simplicity and unity of the finished work of the cross and God’s grace. The whole definition of church is changing day by day. Church is moving out of form and structure and moving into a revelation of the union of Christ with His people. I do believe in equipping through Five-Fold leadership to see the saints mature. I believe in accountability, authority, relationship and discipleship in the Spirit and by the Spirit.

goldfish jumping out of the waterTithing – What’s to say? Since the day I came to know the Lord, I have given my life, my finances, my time and more. I don’t believe that 10% is a rule or law we should follow for it is based in the Old Testament. Jesus’s commandment of loving Him is greater than law. Therefore, to give 10% would be ridiculous. We give Him our life, our time, our finances, our future, our hopes, our dreams and more. Marvin and I have submitted our finances to God and we allow the Holy Spirit to lead us in giving. We don’t tithe, as the definition suggests. We do more than that. We give and give and give – in a generous spirit.

Last thought – Evangelism – Not taught but caught. I did all the ‘reach out, hand out, give out’ tract stuff. To me it was rote and unrealistic. Evangelism is based on the reality of our life, each of our lives, flowing forth in Christ, to the people that we come into contact with day by day. Once again, I believe there are evangelists in the Body of Christ. Yet, they can’t do it for us.  Our passion for Christ should flow out  to the world around us. When people are discipled by Christ through Holy Spirit, equipped to grow in maturity, have encounters with a living Lord, they will flow out. It is quite simple.