Holy Spirit Adventure – Look for the signs!

IMG_6588Sometimes I settle when God is saying “Hold on. Wait. Patience. Don’t take the first thing that comes your way.”

I may settle out of fear when nothing is coming my way that I can see.

I settle into lack, thinking that I don’t deserve anything better so I should take what is right before me. This is as good as it gets.

For any number of reasons, I settle for something less than what God has for me. What excuses do you use to hide fear, or lack, or anxiety? We all have them, in abundance.

We looked at over 10 houses to rent in Texas, not counting all the neighborhoods we drove around looking for rental signs. I discovered that there was a fight going on inside of me. The internal conversation went something like this.

“You know, Debra, the rental market is moving soooooo fast that unless you choose this one the next one won’t be quite as nice and then you will be STUCK without one. Or worse, homeless……..do you like that word?”

Or it can sound something like this.

“Debra, stop being so picky. Compromise a bit. You expect way too much.”

That’s just two examples of the never-ending story that stirred in my head.

7711866066_9ffdaf3078_zTruth – God very often withholds a bit to see if I am trusting Him to lead and guide me, despite what I see. Yes, the rental market is moving fast in Dallas. (All those darn Californians moving out this way. Haha!) And, yes, there is a chance that if I don’t pick what is GOOD right before my eyes, what will come next is NOT SO GOOD and then I am STUCK.

What I am still learning, after years of doing this, is that God always has something beyond good. He always gives me perfect and excellent, for ME. Of course, it may not look like what I initially think. It may not fit my plan. But, when it’s God, there is peace, there is joy and all the pieces seem to fall into place.

Here’s how we rented our home, our beautiful, excellent, perfect home for the next year. I am writing this to each of you to encourage you to journey in and with Holy Spirit. Life is too short to dwell on anything that has no eternal significance.

Day 4 of the search – long long days, one crabby woman, one tired husband and a French bulldog that did not want to be in a car anymore.

Ten houses or more later and each one seemed just not right. Not big enough. Way too big. No back yard for Chlo-girl, our Frenchie. No fence. Wrong neighborhood. Right neighborhood but boring. Too much traffic. Each one seemed lacking.

Was it really? Lacking? Not right? I should say it another way. Each house would be the perfect home – for somebody. But….not for us. I wanted ME when I looked at the home, when I walked through it. I wanted to know that this was THE one. That is how I live my life. It proves to be interesting. It always shows God’s faithfulness to me in the details.

One realtor looked at me, after seeing just one house he showed us, and said. “You know, you have to compromise.”

(Translated to my ears: I want to make this deal. Just pick this one.)

I just looked at him and said nothing. He had no idea about my life over the past few years. This time there would be no compromise. Trusting and waiting on God was the theme of the trip. God led us here. He guided us through every detail. He does not stop halfway through.

So one day, one long day, we drove to the last house on our list, the house that had been forgotten on a sheet of yellow lined paper, hidden way on the bottom of a list of many houses. There it was…..we knew…………we simply knew.

While waiting for the realtor to show us the inside, we stopped at a park to walk Chloe. We started to talk to a couple, a God divine connection for that moment. They spoke with heart about their Christian walk, their fears at this time in their life and the fact that meeting us was ordained by Holy Spirit for that day. She kept saying, “I know God wanted us to meet today.”

God whispers, “Debra, I have your back. Do you catch the signs? Always look for the signs.”

After getting their contact information, we went to see the house which was near the park. Bam…….all fell into place AND the great thing – the owners (bless them Lord over and over) completely redid the house inside – new floors, kitchen, all appliances, washer dryer AND gardening service. I saw the house and I saw ME, creative, alive and ready for a new adventure.

Thank you God for preparing our way in a continuing Holy Spirit journey….so excited about what is next. More to come.

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In Christ,
Debra
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What If? What Now? What Then?

Ever second-guess yourself? It feels like your focus is cracking right before your eyes. One minute you are so sure, so positive. The next moment, what was so clear suddenly seems distant and a bit fearful to you.

When I initially move out in faith, making a decision to follow God at all costs, I feel as strong as a lion, able to conquer the world. In an atmosphere of faith, I feel strong. I know God will supply. I know He will never leave me or forsake me. I also know that His ways are not our ways. Others may not easily understand the path He chooses for us. I know this. I truly do – in an atmosphere or faith, during prayer or worship.

But then…here comes reality. I walk forth and face the day. Here they come. Disturbing questions filled with doubt and fear, wanting to challenge my decision to walk by faith and not by sight. (Which after all is normal Christianity -walking by faith and all.)

What if?What if?
What now?
What then?

In that moment of decision to go for the gold, boldness rises up in me. What I don’t often see is that a new day will bring accusations to deflect my courage with fear and worry, trying to undermine my faith in Christ.

The next day dawns filled with exhilarating fresh possibilities. A new way, a fresh anointing, new ideas, a new move, a new adventure in Christ. I’m ready.

Suddenly, from the edge of my thought universe, doubt begins to sabotage my faith with penetrating questions. Did I really hear that? What if _____ (Fill in the blanks.) Oh my God, what now? What then? I begin to second-guess myself on every level.

Yesterday, I stood in an atmosphere infused with faith. Today? I doubt. Natural sight takes over and spiritual sight seems nebulous and vague. The very thought of what I heard the day before seems strange, out-of-place, unattainable. It sounds crazy to me. If I speak this out to anyone, they will think I have lost my mind.

Right now, I stand in the midst of a crossroads. Moving is upon us again, at some point in the near future. Our choices may be to go back overseas or conveniently move just a few hours down the road ALONG with every conceivable option in between. We don’t know but we sense change is upon us….soon.

This is not new to me. God keeps Marvin and I on the edge, trusting Him with our lives on every level. Yet, side by side with each renewed commitment of faith, to risk and adventure, comes questions of accusations from the enemy.

What if I move and nothing happens? Isn’t it safer to stay here and at least I know what I have here? But, what do I have here? What if money runs out? What if I heard wrong? (That’s a biggie!) What if this sets me on a course of no return? (Yes, it can get that ominous and bleak after a moment of an intense faith decision.)

If in any way, I bow to the ‘what if’ I then run head on into the next level of doubt, the ‘what now.’ This next level of challenge constructs a scenario of impending doom.

“This will cost you. What will you do when your retirement is gone? Settle in. Look for a job. Have a nice life. Play a little golf. Read some good books. Go see some movies. Soon you can even get the senior price. Don’t think so big at this point.”

If that is not enough, here comes another one as I continue to create scenarios based on fear, worry and doubt. Here comes the ‘what then?” After all is said and done, the ‘what then’ keeps implying that after my step of so-called faith, I am stuck, with no way out of the mess I created by presuming to hear the voice of God and actually trusting Him through it all.

“You have made your bed, now lie in it. Are you crazy? What do you think you are doing?”

Embrace the MysteryIn other words, once we walk out on this limb we are on our own. Don’t look for God to bail you out. What then? This decision can really cost you. After all, who steps out on an uncharted adventure after 55? Don’t I know that I should settle down and settle in to what the rules say at my age…………..retire, don’t take chances – so many lies, so very many lies.

Yet, there is a generation of adults like me that will not settle for anything less than what the younger generation wants – adventure and journey in Christ, living in the supernatural each day of our lives. Responding to the sound of heaven. Listening the beat of a different sound in Christ.

No, the young generation is not going it alone, thinking they can conquer the world because of their youth. (Even though prophecy after prophecy seems to say that.) I dispute that on every level. New levels of faith are challenging every age to move out in Christ into uncharted waters trusting Him with our lives.

The enemy uses doubt, anxiety, fear and worry to try to forge a path right in front of me. These accusatory questions try to accuse God – of His love for me and His great grace that empowers me to walk by faith, not by sight.

Our lives seems to be charted on a course of faith, led by Holy Spirit in unique ways and in diverse paths. We knew our time in Southern California was temporary. And, we knew that at some time, directed by God, He was calling us out to walk by faith in a new way. He is our resource on every level of our lives. Will we move back to Finland? Will we move to Texas? Or is there another direction coming that we don’t see right now? Time will tell BUT we refuse to listen to a fear-based scenario rising up side by side to our commitment to lay our lives down for His purpose.

Don’t second-guess what you believe you have heard from the Lord. Of course, there is a path of wisdom to walk out and test the waters that what you are hearing is indeed from God. I am not advocating moving out in emotions, presumption, assumption, sin, passion, lust or control.

His sheep hear His voice. It’s time to start trusting in His voice that leads us in His way. And that way may be off the beaten path of normality. Take it anyway.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths. (Proverbs 3:5-6 NKJV)

Debra 2In Christ,
Debra

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Walk It Out!

Walk in the reality of the Word. I determine in my heart, with a surety of belief that I am not content to sit in a passive mode concerning the Word of God. The Word is living, active and alive. The Word moves in my life, changing, bringing life, and transforming.

AwakeImage – Flickr – Steve Rotman

I read a great article on FB concerning Hollywood’s changing landscape regarding interactive movies and how we, as Christians, are called to interact in heavenly realities. You can read it by clicking here.

Interaction -I awake and  interact with the living Word of God. I am seated in heavenly places. Feeling shut down for so many years, I hid in the shadows, knowing deep inside that I am created to gaze upon His beauty and to reflect His glory in my life. How does one do that in the average church today? At times, the atmosphere can be inactive, with people passively sitting. Opportunities arise to minister through conventional means. Sometimes people don’t fit into the template of missions, women’s ministry, men’s ministry, etc. I believe and love the church. In no way am I putting it down. Just thinking of where my own life is heading and what I want as a Christian. We need an uplift, a makeover to truly reflect the glory and beauty of the King and to walk it out creatively, supernaturally.

But God, who is rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us, 5 even when we were dead in trespasses, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved), 6 and raised us up together, and made us sit together in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, (Ephesians 2:4-6 NKJV)

The Body of Christ needs an uplift into revelation of its inheritance in Christ. There are many seeing this right now and for that I am glad. Experience is a great word and should never be discounted or diminished in any way. It is the Word and the Holy Spirit that walk us in ever-increasing realms of glory here and now. The church is the last place that should be mundane, boring and irrelevant when the living Christ dwells in us…now.

I am seated in heavenly places. This position opens my vision to see, to look all around me as I am seated in eternal realms. I cannot nor do I wish to deny that my Christianity is truly eternal and supernatural. I manifest eternity into the earth realm. The short time that I spend on earth is only that – a short time. I need an uplift in my thinking again. A new download that takes me farther down the road and higher up into Christ in the revelation of Holy Spirit. It hit me this morning that I am not fully engaged in the reality of my Christianity in some aspects. Why? Because I lived in fear, regret and lost my eternal vision Yet, I will walk in this now. Why? I am awake now, allowing Holy Spirit to do what He will and to take me places in the Spirit He desires me to go. The Word of God does not tether me to earthly things. It teaches me to rise above for I am seated in heavenly places.

I set my mind on that. The Word and the Spirit.

1 If then you were raised with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ is, sitting at the right hand of God. 2 Set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth. 3 For you died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God. 4 When Christ who is our life appears, then you also will appear with Him in glory. (Colossians 3:1-4 NKJV)

Debra 2In Christ,
Debra

I would love to speak at your conference, gathering, church or home group. Contact me here, on Facebook or on Twitter. Enjoy reading about Rivers of Eden and the Timeline of our Life!