Get Real – Creativity in Crisis

Creativity flows best when you get real about your life. Look closely at your life. Stop running away from its imperfections. Look at it just as it is. Don’t always emphasize the positive as some sort of mantra that is repeated over and over to create a perfect life. Perfection in life is an illusion. Life is messy. Life is chaotic. That is what births a creative flow of genius in ideas. This reality is in the forefront of Scripture. When God said, “Let there be,” it was spoken into the midst of chaos and darkness. He brought order, His order, into time through a burst of creative light by the Holy Spirit.


I’ll let you into my life in a few short paragraphs. Shame and guilt ruled my life along with rejection, some persecution and a lot of condemnation. Creativity was blocked inside of me like a dam of water being held back in time. I held creative thoughts inside because I did not sense that they were worth anything to anybody. I lived like that for years. Then came my ‘aha’ moment, only it was a lot better than a moment. Jesus found me in all my mess. (Yes, it is all about Jesus for me.) In the midst of chaos, darkness and confusion, He restored my life into the wholeness of who He created me to be AND that includes those lost years of creativity in thought and in action. This is my passion in life – creativity and creative flow.

Being creative is messy because life is messy. I’ve lived a full life. I embrace the pain and the sorrow along with the joy and the peace because all of my inner reality births a flow of creativity from within me. Creativity outside of reality is contrived and it’s called advertising. Hahaha! That is not what I am talking about today. From my suffering, Christ brought beauty and continues to do this day by day. Anyone who runs from the chaos of life lives his or her life in an illusion. That’s not me.

There is so much ‘hyper self-talk” out there right now, trying to convince you that you can create a utopia of some sorts. Jesus is not a fairy Godfather who creates fantasy around you so that you can escape the pain. In Him, you look at who you really are and then His amazing love infuses you to walk in restoration and wholeness. In actuality, Jesus deconstructs you so that He can build you up again. Then, let the river flow. Let the water awaken my soul. Life is beautiful in the midst of my reality. I will not arrive at perfection. I am on this journey along with you. I intend to enjoy the journey and find this creativity that has eluded me for many years.

Our Source In Love – Creativity

Our increasing awareness of such great love in Christ leaves us speaking in superlative expressions, just like Paul! There is nothing that can separate us from the love of Christ Jesus for us, for me, and for you.

Romans 8:35-39 35 Do you think anyone is going to be able to drive a wedge between us and Christ’s love for us? There is no way! Not trouble, not hard times, not hatred, not hunger, not homelessness, not bullying threats, not backstabbing, not even the worst sins listed in Scripture: 36 They kill us in cold blood because they hate you. We’re sitting ducks; they pick us off one by one. 37 None of this fazes us because Jesus loves us. 38 I’m absolutely convinced that nothing––nothing living or dead, angelic or demonic, today or tomorrow, 39 high or low, thinkable or unthinkable––absolutely nothing can get between us and God’s love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us. The Message


When I think about Jesus Christ, I cannot help but be passionate about my expression in the revelation of who He is – His beauty, love, majesty, mercy, compassion, and so on and so on. My outward expression of a glorious inward reality of life in Christ – this is Christianity. This is creativity in life.

Right now, we may be veiled to His great love. Let’s open our eyes to see His great love for us through the finished work of the cross and His grace. Love is the source of creativity. Know Him and know His great love for you. Creativity will flow abundantly and beautifully in Christ as we live in the revelation of being in union in Him.

I want to emphasize that creativity flows from the Creator. In that, I am to be creative in Christ. In being creative, people are drawn to that love flowing through me because of the One who lives in me. I take no credit other than to enter into His love, receive this by the Holy Spirit and to move creatively in Christ. How to move creatively? Out of the box of confinement due to other’s opinions of you, their rejection of you, or their outright persecution of you. God loves you and accepts you. Out of the box of confinement to do or to be like anyone other than the one whom Christ created you to be. Creativity is flowing out to draw others to the source within you, Jesus Christ.

Each of us has a sphere of influence in life. Great joy will flow through our life when we find that in that sphere of the day-to-day, we can be conspicuously creative in our actions. It starts with the simple awareness that we are to be led by the Spirit in the ways He chooses to lead us. That means relinquishing our life to live in His life, the life of Christ. This is not dependent on our ability but on His life flowing through us. There simply is no reason for the Body of Christ to be stagnant, apathetic, or mundane. The only reason is simple and clear. Without Christ being the very center of all we say and do, we are off focus and ineffective. It’s all in Christ.

Colossians 1:16-17 16 For everything, absolutely everything, above and below, visible and invisible, rank after rank after rank of angels––everything got started in him and finds its purpose in him. 17 He was there before any of it came into existence and holds it all together right up to this moment. The Message

Creativity – Compromised

quote-when-you-asked-creative-people-what-they-didCreativity can’t be compromised within yourself or you lose that person whom Christ has created you to be – unique. Walking in a path of generic Christianity only births people who hang out near the shore of mediocrity. I, myself, can’t stay in that place, but where to go to be me in Christ?

Where is community in Christ? Where is that place where I can flourish? Where you can thrive? Anything less than life flowing in Christ and centered on the simplicity of Christ is unacceptable to me at this point in my life.

I simply can’t handle being around Christianese culture, using the right catchwords that lure people into something external, or extraneous to the simplicity of Christ Jesus. Those words like revival, breakthrough, and prayer movement. Those songs reaching higher, going deeper, or crying out longer. Those messages of pressing or reaching for God to come, to fall, to move. All that ‘stuff’ that often originates from our desire to see something or be something or do something. Yes I am thinking about it all today and you are joining me in this journey on this blog. Today I am being stretched to the very limit. I can’t be stretched anymore to accommodate to an existing template of Christianity.

Creativity within me is compromised when I am encouraged to hold to the party line of a movement or a denomination, speaking the right language that distinguishes the movement. Those words like inner healing, prophetic, revival, breakthrough and so many more.

The creative in me wants to create a platform or to join a creative platform of Christians that gather in Christ. That’s all. Just gather in Christ. Centered in Christ, nothing else.

Today, if you are reading this, you have to hear me by the Spirit. What I am saying will sound a bit nebulous if you don’t attune your ears to the Holy Spirit. You see, you have entered my journey midstream. I can’t back up to go over the beginning again. Please read outside the walls if you want to know more about being outside the walls.

I heard these words this morning, creativity compromised. I journeyed out in believing that the revelation would come following those accurate words.

images-15I love Jesus Christ and at the same time, I find Christianity in these times, in the West, stagnant, musty, and somewhat obscure to the reality of the condition of the world at large and its needs and problems. Jesus is fresh, alive and creative. I don’t know yet where to fit in so please do not speak in any clichés to me. If you hear by the Holy Spirit, you will simply agree with me, spirit to spirit, for you are right with me, watching, waiting, looking for………vision, revelation, wisdom. And then, to walk it out. What are you hearing in this by the Holy Spirit? I encourage you to comment below, please.

A vision: Creativity Compromised

It’s like this. A submarine sailing through a vast ocean, never really experiencing it; sheltered, secure and protected by a hard exterior. This reminds me of Christianity a bit.

Many of us captured in a form, sheltered from the moving of the currents, the waves or the tides. Looking out, but never experiencing the reality of the ocean. Encased in a pressurized environment to go into the deep without feeling the pressure building up all around us in going deep. All together in one small place when right outside is an ocean, so vast, so wide, so deep, grace. I want that. I have that. I am out. Now what?

Creativity – It’s All In Christ Jesus

poster25b-150-i-am-the-alphaGenesis 1:1-2 1 In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. 2 The earth was without form, and void; and darkness was on the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters. NKJV

In the beginning, the Father, Son and Holy Spirit spoke and created the heavens and the earth. Creativity flowed! There is seen, in creation, diversity, beauty, form, flow, and function on every level, from the smallest cell to the largest star. God breathed and formed a human being. There is creativity resident in man through His breath and in the power of the Holy Spirit in Christ.

Colossians 1:27 To them God willed to make known what are the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles: which is Christ in you, the hope of glory. NKJV

Christ is in us, the hope of glory. He is the center of our life. Life is defined in Christ. Without Christ there is no life. Our life, beautifully and gloriously formed in Him, flows creatively in our expression in Him. Jesus holds it all together. It’s quite simple knowing this truth. Creativity abounds in the expression of Christ Jesus through people. Once you understand that, you can run with the revelation and the revelation is quite clear. Jesus Christ flows through you in a myriad of ways and expressions.

Love-And-Christian-Free-Wallpaper-Colossians-1-27-678x508How do you express Christ in you? You are not robots or clones. You are free in Christ. This freedom is manifested in the physical ream through the diversity in the human race itself – color, height, or hair color just to name a few. Emotionally we are made whole in Christ and our expression in Him brings forth people who are quiet, loud, passionate, reserved, extroverts, introverts, and more. Spiritually I acknowledge that Christ Jesus is Lord and the center of my life. From that point of revelation I love and move and have my being in Him. My spirituality is secure in the knowledge of this beautiful Savior.

Colossians 1:15-17 15 We look at this Son and see the God who cannot be seen. We look at this Son and see God’s original purpose in everything created. 16 For everything, absolutely everything, above and below, visible and invisible, rank after rank after rank of angels––everything got started in him and finds its purpose in him. 17 He was there before any of it came into existence and holds it all together right up to this moment. The Message

Jesus is the source. Life flows from the source. Creativity in life flows from the source of Christ. When we truly grasp this, we cease all striving to fit in or to be like anyone else. He knows us through and through in our lives. There is no need for competition or jealousy for all flows uniquely in Christ through each of us individually. So be You in Christ.





whats-nextThis will not be a teaching. If you want great teaching, there are many good books that approach this topic with wisdom and grace. Just Google “Jezebel” and you will find one that will answer your questions. I am writing about my experiences, as a prophetic woman confronting a continual backlash from what I would say was a Jezebel spirit. What confronted me over the years was control, manipulation, and lies that flowed from the influence of this spirit in churches and through different people, both men and women, towards me. I will focus on experience after experience in this blog.

This spirit of control and manipulation has tried to undermine and discredit God’s anointing on my life. It has lied about me, stirred up controversy about me, and actually tried to kill any ministry flowing through me. I will be brief as I give you example after example of all that I have encountered. You can choose to believe or not believe. Being outside the walls, I am now able to speak of this freely in this blog. I am dismantling all presumptions and assumptions aimed at my life.

Read this blog – In Which Jezebel Gives Way to Deborah by Sarah Bessey. It will give you some additional thoughts that are relevant and forthright. Jezebel loves to target prophetic people. Jezebel loves to target prophetic women and seeks to destroy their credibility in any way that she can. I have encountered this spirit so many times that at this point in my life, I am aware of it right at the start, before it is able to get a foothold in any way, attacking my life.

Let’s begin. I will call her Sue. Sue and her husband came on the scene at a church Marvin and I attended as well as being in leadership. Sue came in with a great deal of fanfare and exuberance. In a short time, she started getting involved in many different facets of the church, gaining influence everywhere she went. She flowed into woman’s ministry. She worshipped. She was in the drama productions. You name it, she did it.

vt-102556When I would look at here, things never seemed right. At this time, God was just beginning to flow through me in the prophetic so there were times I felt I was wrong in what I was seeing because others did not see the same thing. Something was ‘off’ with this gal but I could not figure it out. I began to hear that she was calling the pastor in the night, at times, to give him a word that could not wait until the morning. Then, there was the time when all the women went on a retreat but she conveniently could not go. Later we found out, that she proceeded to prophecy to her heart’s content, getting center stage in the service while the women were away.

One night, the Lord woke me up and told me to tell the pastor to be careful with this woman. So after service one day, I talked to him outside the sanctuary. I voiced my concerns. His reply to me was something I remember to this very day. He said “Debra, are you sure you are not jealous of Sue?” Selah. No words left to say. The sad thing is that months later, she left her husband and ran away with one of the worship team. Another sad thing is that this pastor never came to me to encourage me or to affirm what I saw in her. This was my first exposure to Jezebel.

Another example. In Finland one time, I was asked to preach at a church where Jezebel was getting a foothold. I did not know it at the time, but I was soon to find out and learn a valuable lesson. Let’s call her Anne this time. I arrived at the church and asked about ministry. Did I have the freedom to flow outside the constraints of the normal service if the Holy Spirit wanted to go a different way? I was told that I had freedom. So the service started and as it progressed, I felt the Holy Spirit tell me to lead out in prophetic song and begin to minister to people. After a short while, as the Spirit was moving so beautifully, Anne comes up, takes the microphone and tells everyone that there is an agenda to be followed. So she turned the flow, completely away from the Spirit of God direction.

I sat down and suddenly got so angry. I was humiliated. I desperately asked the Lord to help me. In the room, I sensed such control and manipulation flowing. Suddenly before my eyes, I saw a woman standing there in the Spirit. She was standing right before me and it was truly demonic. I knew I was seeing what appeared to be a form of Jezebel, right in this church. To make a long story short, I submitted to Anne because she was the leader. What I did not know is that she would go behind my back and tell the pastor, who was not there at the meeting, that I grabbed the microphone away from her, determined to have my own way. She told the pastor that I was very controlling in the service.

arghhhIt gets better. The next day I was scheduled to minister again in the main service so the pastor decided to personally pick me up to talk to me on the way to the church. When we were in the car, he began to share with me the lies that he had been told by this woman. He informed me that I exhibited great control in the previous day’s service and that he needed some explanation. Well, that was a bit hard for me because I was without words. I saw Jezebel, clear at work. How could I defend myself in any way against these lies?

I simply turned to Him and said some simple words. “Those are lies Pastor. And, you have a problem of control and manipulation operating through this woman in your church.” He looked at me and said, “That is not possible.” I said “Well we will have to agree to disagree.” What a way to start a night of ministry. By the way, Anne was not at the service that night, conveniently absent for some reason.

But, back to the car scene. I was so upset. I did the only thing I knew to do. I told the pastor that I would not minister if he did not feel comfortable with me ministering in his church. He stammered and said, “No, no, that is not necessary.” Inside I was confused. So I gained my composure and asked another question. “Well,” I said. “Would you feel comfortable if I told you what I was preaching on?” He said, “Yes.” I said “The blood of Jesus.”

I did minister later that night even though I myself had been lied about and discredited; yet God continued to move in the service. I was never asked back to that church. I was not even able to defend myself against the lies spoken against me. I was wounded and grieved; yet I continued on my journey. Bam, Jezebel hit again.

Please understand I am skimming over this quite quickly to get my point across over the next few blogs. My point – this spirit is alive and well and dwells in the midst of God’s people. It will be confronted and when it is, it gets angrier and angrier seeking to destroy any prophetic ministry it possibly can. That’s enough for now. More coming……….