Creative Expression: A Never Ending Story

Life cannot be understood through a timeline of events. Events are just events, points on a line in time. Birth, death, marriage, or divorce are just a few examples of points on the timeline that we call life. The years come and go. Each day can pass without any meaning. By the time you know it, life has come and gone and you can’t help but wonder what it was all for, where it went, and what now?

freedom-in-christHow do I see my life? How do I want to impact time, here and now? It seems that I have been wandering for many years now. That is not a good thing but can often be the breeding ground of disillusionment or discouragement. This blog, from this point forward, is flowing from me. So who is me? And what makes me different that you would want to read anything about me?

I don’t want to refer to these posts as a patchwork quilt, piece-by-piece, varied and different with the whole making the final statement of a picture.

That’s not me. I am more eclectic than that. I am chaotic at times and my musings will throw me off balance, so I try to reel them in and then I feel compromised and complacent. I want to make you think and reflect. I want to stir up questions that make you see beyond the surface of the words to find something of eternal value and beauty. To do that, I have had to walk away from other’s expectations and my own fears to move in ‘me’.

I am perhaps like some of you – visually inclined to see and observe with stories and pictures running through my head in color. Of course, can I say that this part of me, of Debra, was not actually accepted for many years? That is why I lost myself and tried to be acceptable, understood and balanced. Well, I am quite often the opposite to all of that. I tend to be quirky and offset and intense. So this blog of Creative Expressions will be various creative expressions – stories, videos, pictures, and so much more. That keeps my creative energies stirring round and round, flowing, moving and just being.

to_be_or_not_to_be_by_sharp_negative-d3f1qr5 The foundation of my life is Christ Jesus. I keep trying to speak to this issue of creativity in the church and walking in creativity in Christ Jesus. I am not sure many are getting it so I have a choice. I can be the norm or I can walk ahead of the pack and believe that Christians will rise up into the creative expression in Christ, venturing out into unexplored vistas of possibilities. I will go and start walking now, right now. I will post at least 3 times a week, asking Holy Spirit to ignite this creativity in me so that each blog post will stir each of you with a smile, a tear and laughter. Some will be serious and forthright as a lion coming out in me. Others will be spontaneous. Others will be visual. That is ‘me’. Not a patchwork quilt, per say, but rather like a never-ending story in process as the Lord keeps forming me and anointing me for the quirky.

 So my next post will be about a vision, a story, a cracked mirror and facing disillusionment head on. Enjoy this journey with me!

How about you? How can you make 2014 more internally creative? It’s not about a creative act. It’s about YOU, being creative in Christ.

To Be Or Not To Be – Quotable Living

to_be_or_not_to_be_by_sharp_negative-d3f1qr5I am in the Ultimate Blog Challenge where I write for 30 days straight in my blog. I joined it because it is the right time for my blog and ministry, Rivers of Eden. Join me on this spiritual journey for the month of October. My focus is simple and it came through an ‘aha’ moment where I suddenly thought, after 30 years of ‘doing’ Christianity, it is now my time to ‘be” Christianity. I know, I know, the choice of words is off and a bit cliché, but you get the picture right?

Here’s a quote to get this journey off and running:

“Do one thing everyday that scares you.” Eleanor Roosevelt

Crap, that quote alone scares me for it catapults me into the midst of uncertainty. Do you know what births boring and mundane Christianity? Certainty in anything other than the reality of Jesus Christ. When you are so certain that you become a self-righteous robot who speaks without truly knowing the person of Christ. Christianity is about risk, adventure and relationship in Christ. So I am doing something scary right here, right now – getting out of the boat, walking on the water to Him, and speaking forth with honesty from my imperfect life.

I am a follower of Jesus Christ, a disciple of His life and His teachings. I love the Bible, I truly do. That is my BE. Now I will venture away from what I can only describe as my DO of Christianity into the great unknown. How to DO Christianity the wrong way? Assume a perfect position and put that mask of “having it all together” on for all to see, week by week by week. Don’t let anyone see the real you; that you are human and strive for perfection at times and thereby fall into a deep well of self-loathing because you actually dislike how you are, what you look like, or how you were designed. Do busy by immersing yourself in church culture rather than walking in intimacy with the Lord, even if it means going it alone. If you feel this is sarcastic, it is not. For me, it is simple truth.

My life as a Christian minister has been stripped down to acknowledging that I am standing in the unemployment line. Is that possible? Well for me it is at this moment. I am standing without opportunity, without ministry outlets, and without a safety net underneath me. It seems all my life I thought I would get to the point of ministry and have this traveling entourage, going to the nations, preaching at conferences, and gaining a strong following. Yikes, that sounds ridiculous, but it is true. Actually today I am born again, again, to use that cliché. I am standing in the unemployment line without a ministry, as I have said, but I am willing to take the bread of life as my substance in place of food stamps. I trust Him in this new place. That previous statement about the bread was so lame but I won’t delete it. It’s me! God pulled it all away for this season, took down any props building up my ego, and then left me standing to build again with hopes and dreams for my future to BE a Christian.

So the world is a wide-open field for me and I intend to discover it anew through the eyes of Jesus. I step out to BE in Him. What has Jesus brought to me? Books, books and more books. I am reading voraciously .I exit my cloistered life of charismatic culture and read and glean and listen and grow. And, that is how I found this quote for the first time in a book My Year with Eleanor by Noelle Hancock. I am devouring it, along with many others, reading about imperfection, failure, success and life. I am also going to use a lot of quotes this next 30 days that are opening my eyes. 

I pray you journey with me as I journey with Jesus Christ for the next 30 days and let’s see where it goes. My desire – eyes open wider to see with compassion, ears to hear the cries of people’s hearts, and a life that is willing to stop on the journey to experience life at a new level. I want to do something scary each day, led by the Spirit. And, I believe I will. Onward.