Can’t See the Forest for the Trees – Speaking from Outside the Walls over, move out, move around – do it and your perspective changes. Stay in one place, spiritually, emotionally, or physically and your perspective can form into a type of tunnel vision.  We all need to come out and move around in life, in some way, in some form. When I moved out, I began to see. Now, do not assume that I will never go into a ‘church setting’. If you do, you are missing the point of what I am saying in this blog. My perspective on church, along with many other things, has changed and is changing. Here’s just a few.

The Bible – This is a book that I absolutely love. I see it as a book that reveals to me the person of Christ Jesus by Holy Spirit. It has layers of understanding and revelation given to us by the Spirit as He reveals Christ to us. It is not a book to be dissected and separated in a spirit of self-righteousness, giving religious laws and rules to live  a constrained and mundane  life. It is a person giving us His life flowing through us. This book can’t even be understood apart from the Spirit of God.

Prayer – This is not a platform given to me to beg, plead, coerce or manipulate God to hear me, as if He is deaf or unconcerned. This is a place of holy communion with God by Holy Spirit where I live  in a place of oneness with Christ in me. I agree with what He has already established in His word and through His life and thereby my life. I don’t agree that we need 24/7 prayer to cry out continuously trying to break down walls that already came down when Jesus died, was resurrected and ascended into heaven seated with God and with us in heavenly places.

6353435485_09f6e2abd4_zRevival – Revival of what? Christ is in us, the hope of glory. Hoping for that one day whereby something sweeps through a nation or a people, denies the reality that Christ is in us and we are called right now to walk in revelation, power, and authority. We have it now in Christ.  This word seems to be something people love to say, write about, think about and dwell in the possibility of, rather than to BE Christ to the world right where they are in life. This word, in my opinion, keeps people chasing after speakers and conferences. This word, denies the value of true discipleship and equipping to DO for God what the Holy Spirit directs us to DO in life.

Covering – Jesus is my covering. There is no man-made covering of denomination, organization, or religious establishment. I am covered in Christ – no gender or race discrimination. Christ calls me, qualifies me and places me in Him in the Body of Christ. I need nothing else but that in my life. Through life in Christ, relationships, accountability, and community will form through Holy Spirit, not through man’s wisdom or efforts.

Church – How to say this in a few words? Church is the moving, living, flowing life of Christ through a people living and moving in their salvation in Christ. It flows in Holy Spirit order. It can meet anywhere at any time as believers gather together. It moves in the reality of Christ, His person, His headship, His works, and His life. It is not dependent on a day to meet, or a place to gather, or a denomination to cover. Holy Spirit integrates us in the life of Christ as people gather of one accord in the simplicity and unity of the finished work of the cross and God’s grace. The whole definition of church is changing day by day. Church is moving out of form and structure and moving into a revelation of the union of Christ with His people. I do believe in equipping through Five-Fold leadership to see the saints mature. I believe in accountability, authority, relationship and discipleship in the Spirit and by the Spirit.

goldfish jumping out of the waterTithing – What’s to say? Since the day I came to know the Lord, I have given my life, my finances, my time and more. I don’t believe that 10% is a rule or law we should follow for it is based in the Old Testament. Jesus’s commandment of loving Him is greater than law. Therefore, to give 10% would be ridiculous. We give Him our life, our time, our finances, our future, our hopes, our dreams and more. Marvin and I have submitted our finances to God and we allow the Holy Spirit to lead us in giving. We don’t tithe, as the definition suggests. We do more than that. We give and give and give – in a generous spirit.

Last thought – Evangelism – Not taught but caught. I did all the ‘reach out, hand out, give out’ tract stuff. To me it was rote and unrealistic. Evangelism is based on the reality of our life, each of our lives, flowing forth in Christ, to the people that we come into contact with day by day. Once again, I believe there are evangelists in the Body of Christ. Yet, they can’t do it for us.  Our passion for Christ should flow out  to the world around us. When people are discipled by Christ through Holy Spirit, equipped to grow in maturity, have encounters with a living Lord, they will flow out. It is quite simple. 

Racing Toward the Bottom!

ImageRead this with spiritual eyes and hear this with spiritual ears. I am being myself in this. I used to qualify so much of what I said because of a need to be understood. No more. Just enjoy and glean from this what you can. There are nuggets of truth for many of you.

I am racing toward being ‘bottomed out’ for the mountaintop continually evades me. The only way to climb it is by obvious means – self-promotion; extensive networking, conference invitations, book deals, Facebook posts, twitter followers and perhaps even some hype along the way. I can’t do it and some days I am just tired. So I am walking in grace, walking in the unforced rhythm of grace, walking with Jesus Christ. In doing that, I am not racing to the mountaintop but walking in the valley of reality where I not only look at my life, I see my life for what it is. Not an easy place for any of us.

To reach the bottom (qualitatively speaking) brings me face to face with reality in all its glory. It tires me out to maintain or sustain any kind of self-perceived recognition or reputation. I am passionately looking at His life, the life of Christ, in me. I see this life in Christ with no illusions or facades. I walk with Him with no presumption or protocol. Bring me down to the bottom, Lord, so I may live my life in you. I am not philosophizing here but being honest. Tired of religious crap today and weary of religious facades. So being honest with those reading this, writing with lots of grace.

Trying to believe to achieve what you desire is ludicrous. When you arrive at what you are believing for, what do you do? Well, if you initiated the journey, you will have to maintain what you initiate. That can get very tiresome in time. So I have decided to pull the plug on any and all ministry aspirations. I don’t want anything maintained on life support so I am letting ministry, as I have defined it, go and letting God lead the way. Sounds so spiritual but it is not meant to be anything other than the depth of my heart. This blog will take a great turn now showing the depths of my heart. I will see my life in Christ, not through the lens of building a ministry or establishing a following. Are you with me?

I am not talking to everyone who is reading this. I am reaching out to those who find themselves on the way down, because you are somehow fed up with programs, plans, agendas, image, and reputation. I want what is real and that is Jesus Christ. So I am racing to be bottomed out and the sooner the better because then He promises me, I will find myself in Him.

Luke 17: 33 If you grasp and cling to life on your terms, you’ll lose it, but if you let that life go, you’ll get life on God’s terms.

Lose your life to find your life. We fight that with all of our being. Who actually freely chooses insignificance, anonymity, obscurity or being alone with no clear direction in time. Raise those hands everybody!

I admit. I did not choose it for myself willingly. Yet, I find myself in the midst of this ‘bottoming out’ in a standing position of reality. I am BEING right now. I am not fighting to do anything. I am just being quiet and trusting. And, of course, blogging and letting you all in on this. Before I set one foot down again in ministry, I want to walk in His way, the way, in life and in truth. Crowds rush by me all having to be somewhere or do something. In all honesty, I am facing this transition in grace with a lot of time on my hands. That is why all the talk on the purpose of time.

I am losing any ability to define myself. I am simply incapable of refining myself except by His hand. So I choose today to wait until He brings me into this new way in Him. (Yes, for all of us grace people, I know I am in Him. But it is still a journey of discovery day by day!) My foundations are secure in the finished work of His cross. I stand in a broad place of exploration in Him. What am I looking for? Wait, I think I see a small glimpse of it. There it is. Simplicity of life in Christ. The journey begins. I am seeking Him outside the box and I shall find Him in greater and more creative ways. I am sure of it.