A Beautiful Birth!

“How can you expect people to empower what you will not expose? How will it be named, funded, discovered if it is not exposed?” TD Jakes

As I said in yesterday’s blog, I know, deep inside me, there is a sense of destiny and greatness. I can feel it stirring within me, like a baby kicking. It’s been so long that I feel wayyyyyy over due. I want to get this baby out. What do I do? I want to be in sync with Jesus and Holy Spirit, relying on their strength to birth at this time. What do I DO?

‘Do’ seems to be a negative word in Christian circles. Christians DO a lot, through self-effort, performance, pleasing people, or following the latest movement or trend. ‘Do’ can imply works based on the flesh or someone trying to get ahead to be something by doing something. So, word after word comes forth of being still, just being, basking, or soaking in His love. It’s all good but I want to DO – now. It’s time. Spiritual birth is accompanied by God-given strength to DO. This baby comes with pain and lots of pushing.

With Brave Wings, She FliesSupernatural life, as a seed of destiny, planted inside me years ago by God is now time to come forth and come out. Being for years – months and years of waiting, pregnant with possibility, carrying revelation, ideas, and creativity – thinking, praying – being. Year after year,  I look down and see life stirring in me. I can’t deny it any longer. I have to accept this reality of destiny and calling, despite what others think, say or feel. It is now undeniable, as my ‘spiritual belly’ has gotten so big. It’s time to bear down and from this place of being pregnant; there is now work to be done in the process of birthing. I invite all of you into this process today.

Call the midwife. Wait? What? Holy Spirit is here. And, so is Jesus and the Father. They’ve been here all along through the pain all these years, often silently watching and waiting as this spiritual baby grew inside of me. This is an appointed time for this – God’s perfect timing. Now. Today.

The precious Holy Spirit, coming alongside me to carry me through this delivery. In this place of birth, there arise memories of pain and heartache and lost time from seasons past, but there’s not time to think about that now. Contractions are increasing and birth is near. Who has time to relive past mistakes now? I am pregnant with possibility, but it takes work to bring this baby forth, with lots of pain, blood, mess and a myriad of emotions.

Einstein WomenThe present is now and the contractions are here. There is no alternative but to push. You see, I can’t DO this without the supernatural help of the Lord. And, He’s right here with me, every step of the way.

With each contraction, there comes a burst of pain. It is necessary. Beauty is birthed in pain to bring forth this spiritual baby. I know the name. God gave me the name. Rivers of Eden Ministry, years ago in 1997. It’s been a long long time. I carried this promise for so long that I intimately know everything about Rivers of Eden but I am still unable to verbalize its reality until I see its beauty and grace. Until I look at it upfront and personal, seeing it as a gift from God to me.

At this time, so close, the lies still try to invade this holy place of birth as a last-ditch effort to immobilize me with fear, discouragement, and disillusionment. They say:

“It will be stillborn. It won’t stand a chance.”

“You’ll die in the process and then what?”

“Even if Rivers of Eden is born, don’t you remember the past? All those mistakes. Oh yeah the anger, the wounds in your life. Remember who you were? Remember who you are? Don’t think that people will forget.”

Don’t you know that the enemy never gives up, never? Yet, alongside these voices of accusation comes a voice like no other. A voice so still, so serene and so beautiful that my focus is averted from the lies to the truth of my life in Christ.

Psalm 139:13-16
Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out;
you formed me in my mother’s womb.
I thank you, High God––you’re breathtaking!
Body and soul, I am marvelously made!
I worship in adoration––what a creation!
You know me inside and out,
you know every bone in my body;
You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit,
how I was sculpted from nothing into something.
Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth;
all the stages of my life were spread out before you,
The days of my life all prepared
before I’d even lived one day

 Here it is – “Strength to Birth.”

At this moment of being so bottomed out, so weary, so discouraged, unbelieving, without reputation, finances, honor – rejected by many, misunderstood and invisible. I need strength and have found it in Christ. Right here. Right now.

This is the month. The 9th month – September AND quite gloriously, the exact month that my children, Ryan and Kristen were born. Don’t ever think that God is not in the details.

‘Push.” Christ in me, the hope of glory – my being. His creative purpose in Rivers of Eden Ministry in my life – my doing. Both work side by side in His glorious grace and mercy. Bear down. Push and out comes this baby. It is time. Now.

So what does this baby look like? After years of carrying this vision within my spiritual being………..what does it look like? Rivers of Eden Ministry – I’ll share more with you soon. This is my life in Christ. I simply can’t do things any other way than creatively and so this blog comes forth. To deny the essence of my life in Christ is death to the vision God has placed inside of me. Creative expression – to gaze upon His beauty and to reflect His glory AND to impart that truth into the lives of others all over the world.

Yes, I can write things out in a more reasonable, understandable format where those more analytical than myself would understand but then, I would cease to be me. I want those outside the box, those who color outside the lines and think outside the norm. I am stretching way out on a limb here, trusting my inner feelings on a blog where many will critique, pass judgment, or disdain me, trying to keep me where they want me to be. Well, that won’t work because I am changed inside. There is nothing to prove and nothing to lose. Just me.

Debra and ChloeIn Christ,
Debra

Strength To Birth

Blue GlobeTurning – this blog is turning. This week I’ll impart a sense of turning as I write. I believe many reading this are walking the same path as Marvin and I. Will you follow me on this journey of life?

I’m looking at the horizon – a sense of purpose stretches out before me. My path is ordered in Christ in Holy Spirit. How to start? God always seems to put audio messages, You Tube videos, books and other things into my life when I need to hear something specific. When I listen, the message grabs me as if it is spoken to me alone. Life flows into my spirit as I listen to the words being spoken, images shown or music flowing. They reach deep into my being with a life all their own. Jesus says it this way.

John 6:63
It is the Spirit who gives life; the flesh profits nothing. The words that I speak to you are spirit, and they are life.

He speaks and His words are life – to us. And……He speak through many different venues, in diverse and creative ways……..to each of us.

Instinct, a book by TD Jakes is life to me in this season. I listened to this online message over and over and over.

The message of my life is intertwined with the ministry that God is birthing within me, Rivers of Eden. (More on that in the coming week.) I am a walking message, filled with His life and glory, the creative expression of Christ. This is how He creates His life through me, and also through each of you. I listened to TD Jakes as He said:

“You are called to BE the highest and best expression of who you are created to be (in Christ).”

That has been my spiritual mandate for years. Yet, while deep inside I knew it, I did not adequately believe it. So, for years we have ministered in lack – lack of finances, lack of ministry, and a deep down lack of belief tha this ministry is in Jesus Christ. I see that now.

Another great quote from Jakes:

“People have attached to you their own need and you have morphed yourself to respond to these needs and circumstances. It now takes times to find out who you are again. Who are you apart from the applause, the approvals or the indictments (and rejections)? In the second half of your life, do YOU.”

Then here it came……….”You need the strength to birth again.”

Those words shot through me like a sword, dividing lies from truth to conquer my heart – all the lies I believed, all the wasted time, all the control, the dead ends….I am tired.

Too tired to birth, yet carrying a spiritual baby within my being. I need strength to birth again.

What if I flyWhat keeps me from bearing down and giving birth? I believe I finally get it. The pain of the past, the experiences, all the crap enhanced with lies from the enemy, pummel my life on a daily basis. “You are a fraud and once they see who you really are, you are nothing.” That tormented my soul for years, somehow believing that despite what God placed in me, due to years of mistakes, I am now disqualified.

In feeling disqualified, I did not actually believe or expose the greatness, creativity and anointing of my Lord through my life. I shut down and then wondered why I was invisible or forgotten. The bottom line, when realized, is simple to understand.

If I don’t expose what I have inside of me, what I am called to do for Christ in this life, then how will anyone know, truly know me and Rivers of Eden?

“How can you expect people to empower what  you will not expose? In order to expose what you have inside of you, you’ve got to believe what He put down deep inside of you.”

First and foremost, the revelation of Christ in me, the hope of glory, is growing within my being. Flowing out, it flows in a ministry named Rivers of Eden, the ministry God will birth through myself and Marvin and a team that joins up with us as we go to the nations in this new season. I can say that in faith now, realizing that when God begins a good work in you, He will complete it.

This is the exact season for me. Thinking that I was invisible and forgotten, I denied the very God who loves me and calls me, fulfills His dream in and through my life. I see. My eyes are open and I see.

Life is calling me out…….I don’t have the full picture but the horizon is in view and I am walking…………I feel strength within me to birth. There is so much more coming forth. Enjoy!

10511315_794327653940721_886065626280149819_nIn Christ,
Debra Westbrook