Borders and Boundaries Needed – I Can Get Lost In that Wide-Open Space!

He stood me up on a wide–open field; I stood there saved––surprised to be loved. (Psalms 18:19 Message)

I stand amazed in a wide-open field of freedom. A thought hits me, “This is a place of unrestricted movement. I can do it all. I can be all.”

This moment brings a revelation of unbridled freedom. At last! For years I languished under internal laws and restrictions brought about by my own deep rejection and insecurities. It just feels good to know that I am free, in Christ.

Freedom in ChristWait! What is that I see?

I look around. What’s that in the distance? Border. Boundaries. Fences.

Even in my freedom, there’s a sense of restriction providing safety, hemming me in on every side. Under the shadow of His wings (Psalm 91) He shelters me, protects me, quite often from myself and my own sense of journey into places that are good but not excellent for me.

Unbridled freedom can lead me into confusion and distraction apart from the leading of Holy Spirit. My own sense of entitlement, believing that now that I am free, I can do anything I want, can easily rule and reign. But as I said before, not everything that is good, is good for me. It is only in surrender that true freedom comes to His will and the ways of Holy Spirit.

I arrive in this place in process, restored but still being restored to the wholeness of my salvation. There is still a deep truth, an unfolding revelation of Christ in me needing to be established as I live, move and have my being in Christ. Inside of me, there is still that sense of upholding ‘ME”. Self-preservation brings on a fear of losing myself totally to the unknown. I hold on just a bit to something so I can call it my own.

Could it be that after years of fear on so many levels that I want to control a little part of my life? Just a little bit? Of course that’s it. I try to deny it but the evidence is quite clear. And yet, His grace is sufficient and in the midst of my own self-preservation, He loves me and shows me a better way.

Here I am in a broad place. I want to get this right this time so as not to be propelled back into a place of restriction and grief, dead ends and false starts.

He also brought me out into a broad place; He delivered me because He delighted in me. (Psalms 18:19 NKJVS)

I can dance. I can move. I can live. Is this really true? Yes.

Christ has set us free to live a free life. So take your stand! Never again let anyone put a harness of slavery on you. (Galatians 5:1 Message)

You know, I can get lost in freedom, endlessly wandering from one thing to the next, going here, going there, a little bit of this, a little bit of that. One more conference. One more book. What am I trying to achieve? Perfection? Why? So that somehow God sees I am worthy on some level? Yuk!

Apart From MeI need restraint in my freedom to point the way, His way. And I definitely need a bit of structure and discipline to set me on a path of destiny. He knows where He is taking me, where He wants me to end up before I go to the next place of glory in faith.

In this place, right here, right now, You Jesus set my feet down on a path of life. You know me through and through, when I stand, when I move, what I feel, how I see. Now that I am here, I must accept that Your way is My way. You are the way for me, a path of light and life, hope and love.

As I wander through this broad place, my imagination runs wild for I know I am a woman who loves creativity, adventure and journey. Things that pop up along the way can distract me, often losing the course of my day. I guess I am both right and left brained for there is this rational side of me alongside this wild creative side. Hmmm.

Wait – what is this I see? In the midst of this broad place, there is a path forming right before my eyes. It is a narrow way in the midst of a broad place.

I see it like this.

Then Jesus answered and said to them, “ Most assuredly, I say to you, the Son can do nothing of Himself, but what He sees the Father do; for whatever He does, the Son also does in like manner. (John 5:19 NKJV)

There are many ways in the Way. There are many paths to follow. I believe for me I have to simply listen, trust, obey and move, even if I don’t see the total outcome. If I don’t, I can be wandering in freedom forever accomplishing very little in my life. Focus is not my focus.

The voice of Holy Spirit whispers, “This is the way. Walk in it.”

I follow.

I trust.

I obey.

(These thoughts today spring from my own frustration within my own creativity. I have been easily distracted and wind up easily frustrated. Why? I did not do the one thing that God asked me to do.

“Study imagination.”

I started out good but somehow it was not enough for I could not see the outcome so I added, a bit here and a bit there. Before I knew it, I was on a rabbit trail of so many things I lost my focus. Lesson learned Father.

I forgot the simplicity of the instruction and His grace to lead me along the set path to get me to where He wants me to me.

Why do I do this? It’s quite simple. I feel that I should be excellent and do just a bit more than what God asks and He will be so proud of me. That, my friends, is a lie, a subtle lie of performance. I pulled it all back, reeled it all in. So I sit here in the library to study faith, imagination allowing the Holy Spirit to lead the way. I pray you get the point here. Stay focused on exactly what God tells you to do. In fact, I would challenge many today to forgo trying to be everything to everyone, a jack-of-all-trades master of none. Follow His path. His way.)

In Christ, Debra

Creativity – Taking It Back? Or Just Moving Out?

Creativity calls us to stretch. Break out. Move past any limiting restrictions that we place upon the identity, character and nature of Jesus Christ,

As we move, a pervasive question still sounds forth from eternity. This question is not so much to challenge us as to change us by our answer.

“Who do you say that I am?” (Matthew 16:15) That question resounds today, loud and clear. Our answer should flow not from our own head knowledge but from being in sync with heaven’s revelation of the Son, imparted to us. Revelation flows. It hits our heart and our mind. We speak in clear and beautiful ways to reveal who Christ is.

Peter said it this way – “You’re the Christ, the Messiah, the Son of the living God.” 17 Jesus came back, “God bless you, Simon, son of Jonah! You didn’t get that answer out of books or from teachers. My Father in heaven, God himself, let you in on this secret of who I really am. (Matthew 16:16-17 Message)

Who do you say that He is?

Jesus is……………….

There are any number of ways to express the glory of the Son. Words, of course. And dance. And song. And ideas abounding in Christ. And wisdom. And. And And…. so much more.

The Father longs to amaze us; astound us with an unfolding revelation of His Son, Jesus Christ.

Who (Jesus) being the brightness of His glory and the express image of His person, and upholding all things by the word of His power. (Hebrews 1:3 NKJVS)

We gaze in wonder at His beauty and reflect His glory so that the world will see our Lord. Our expression flows from revelation. This creative expression is then infused through our actions into the atmosphere in the Holy Spirit. Let creativity abound in the Body of Christ!

In HimOf course there is a flip side to this. As I observe culture, I see something else happening. It didn’t just start yesterday. As the church has been robotically cloned in the image of man’s wisdom over the years the devil has been hacking into creative minds right and left. While the church has followed man’s programs and agendas, lacking imagination and true creativity in Holy Spirit, the devil holds captive creative people to fear, greed, narcissism, spirituality without Christ, and perversion.

Creativity is his playground where he captures the hearts and minds of people who giving glory to him through their own pride in creating and its process and promotions. He uses creativity to beckon many to walk in a spirituality without Christ. Calling forth muses, or spirit guides, many attribute their success or acclaim to the occult realm. Others live in fear, rejection, and even contemplate suicide as the devil perverts the creative gifting in people. From movies, TV, books, video games and more, creative expression is sourced in the demonic and flows out in lust on many levels. This is not creativity in its purest form.

Father God expresses His glory through His Son. The Father and the Son are one. Christ is in us, the hope of glory. The Spirit is given to us to access heavenly realms. As Christians, we abound in creativity in our salvation. Creativity is in Christ and we are the creative expressions of His glory in the earth. Christ in us.

This is a good thought to ponder and a good place to start this week. Imagine in Holy Spirit a creative life and its flowing expression. Creativity is our inheritance in Christ – ideas, revelation, imagination, art, music, business…..

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It is not so much that we are to take it back. It is not the enemy’s to possess in the first place. In essence, we simply move out in the creativity that is ours in Christ Jesus. Already happening through movies such as Holy Ghost or War Room, we are harnessing our creativity in Christ and telling His story to the world in unique and diverse ways. The well is deep. His love is wide. Each of us plays a part with a unique script and story. It’s time.

Each blog post is just a part of what is going on in my own mind and heart. I am trying to put this all in some sort of order but I find that it is impossible to do. Creative ideas and revelation are hitting me from all sides so I pray you are reading it all and taking what is yours and moving out, stretching in creativity in your own life.

Tentatively, I am going back to Kenya in December for the next phase in Rivers of Eden. Taking creative discipleship classes into churches where I am teaching on living, moving and having your being in Christ – identity. Then we move into prophetic meetings where we let Holy Spirit in creativity flow. Step by step in this journey.

Debra

In Christ, Debra

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Creative Expression – How Wonder……….ful!

As a Christian, I need, must have, a sense of beauty, majesty, wonder, and mystery when I live in Christ. My sense of being in Christ lifts me up above, allows me to walk in eternity now, and enjoy encounters that defy my understanding. That is Christianity – not just getting by each day as if the mundane is the destination on your journey! And, it is a journey in Christ!

This is where I am today. Several thoughts to give to you so that your spirit would be impacted with hope, encouragement and joy, pure wonderful joy. Here’s a word, one word to start this off.

You can’t carry loss, regret, grief or mourning into 2014. Leave it! Leave it! Allow God to heal and touch your life with joy, which gives strength.

The joy of the Lord is my strength. Despite anything life is throwing at you, live in joy, even in the midst of suffering which will come, not maybe, but will come at some points along the journey. Don’t mourn anymore! Cast off the grave-clothes and live! Prophetically, I woke up heavy in my spirit BUT as I prayed, worshipped and prayed in tongues, reading His word, a lightness descended upon me from above and rose up within me from Christ and I started to see.

Heavenly PlacesHere’s another word. I enrolled in a ‘goal setting’ class. Haha! Never thought I would do that. Even thought I was ‘above it.” Yet, I enrolled in it and this class is changing my life. In this class, He identifies having a ‘push goal” – one goal that acts like a catalyst to set in motion everything else. One goal to get you going and moving. When I sat and thought about it for a while, I could not actually figure out what that ‘push goal’ would be for me. Then I had this aha moment and I knew. And over the past few days, it is proving to be so true. Rather I should say, He, Holy Spirit, is proving Himself to be so awesome.

My ‘push goal’ – to start my mornings early and to spend my mornings with the Lord.

That is not religious exercise. That is glorious. I wake up; get my journal, praise, worship and listen. I even pray in tongues at times for a half-hour while I BE in the Lord. He fails me not. There comes a word, a vision, and a revelation into my spirit that reveals His beauty, His splendor, and His kingdom being worked out in me and through my life. He is faithful to BE with me as I BE in Him. ☺ You see, that ‘push goal’ catalyzes everything else around me. It fires up my hope, my faith, and my vision to see. Despite everything life throws at me, He is with me.

So here are my thoughts from this morning.

I am seated with Christ in heavenly places. (Ephesians 2:6)

If then you were raised with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ is, sitting at the right hand of God. 2 Set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth. 3 For you died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God. (Colossians 3:1-3 NKJV)

Do you see how often we are pulled down? Just spend time on Facebook and it can and does often drag you down into the mundane, into confusion and more. Wordy debates in Christianity – grace, faith, love, and joy hope – everyone has an equal and opposing opinion. I am sick of it all. No one actually has it all right so I leave it behind, totally behind. Creativity is birthed in greater ways through my life when I spend my time with Him and my focus on Holy Spirit. There’s my way!

My grace awakening did wonders for me. It is healing all performance to DO for God in order to BE for God. Yet, I am now hungry again for the prophetic and the supernatural moving of the Spirit. My life is built on movement in the Spirit, going to nations, speaking prophetically into people’s lives, and more. Years ago, I woke up at 2 am in the morning to encounter an angelic presence at my bed, calling me forth in the prophetic. It has been a long hard journey.

Rivers of Eden in Marvin and I is alive. I did not think it was. I said it could not be after all the years of defeat and failure. It is alive. Not outside of me, but inside of me right here and right now. What does that mean? Well, only that Holy Spirit will open His doors in the coming year into nations, cities, and even coffee shops – one on one and to many. I simply trust in that AND that is enough for me right now. Let’s see where this journey starts!

Life is alive again because I washed up on the shore of my destiny, beaten, bruised, wounded, tired, empty, ohhhhhhh so empty! I know nothing except Christ and Him crucified. I desire to speak His words again over nations and into people. I was not ready before this. I thought I was but I was not ready. Deborah, the bee, is me…………..in Christ.

What about you? Are your dreams dormant? Or even dead? Trust me when I say that I have been there and know. How I know! I am not into religious or spiritual clichés. I love the reality of the Living Word of God weaving His dreams through my life.

Comments? Give me one word that describes what you want for 2014. (Haha – I actually got that idea from Chuck Pierce but I have also used it before too.) What is that one word?

What’s In A Name?

Tunnel_Of_LoveWhat’s In A Name?

Christian – a believer in Jesus Christ and his teachings; one who lives according to the teachings of Jesus Christ.

Since 2002, we have been out of the ‘church building’ and out of ‘institutional church”. When the revelation hit us in 2002 that we are the church, Christ in us, we simply walked away from a certain form of ‘church’. One can say we left church, but we really did not leave church. We may have left a form but the revelation of the church and the Body of Christ has intensified in our hearts for many years. With each passing year, we become more and more aware of the beauty and the mystery of Christ and His Bride. The Body of Christ is a miracle and we saw it OUT of the confines of religion. We believe in the church of Jesus Christ.

Colossians 1: 15-19  We look at this Son and see the God who cannot be seen. We look at this Son and see God’s original purpose in everything created. 16 For everything, absolutely everything, above and below, visible and invisible, rank after rank after rank of angels– everything got started in him and finds its purpose in him. 17 He was there before any of it came into existence and holds it all together right up to this moment. 18 And when it comes to the church, he organizes and holds it together, like a head does a body. He was supreme in the beginning and– leading the resurrection parade– he is supreme in the end. From beginning to end he’s there, towering far above everything, everyone. 19 So spacious is he, so roomy, that everything of God finds its proper place in him without crowding

Over the years, we have fellowshipped with small groups of people in homes. We have developed some strong relationships of accountability and continue to be in love with Jesus Christ. A shift happened a few years ago when I began to see that God was pulling us out even further as we began to fellowship with many different people, with diverse belief systems.  Our purpose was not to be drawn away from Christianity as much as it was to take Christ into wherever we were going in life.

ColorfulWith our focus on the Lord and our belief in His love for people, we did not feel at all uncomfortable with people that drank, cussed, swore, slept around, or lived with other members of the opposite sex. Then we started having dinner with Muslims, Buddhists, Pakistanis, Indians or Africans. Then along came the lesbians and the homosexuals and even the bisexual and transvestites. Then what followed were more people, simple people whom Jesus Christ died for and whom He loves with an unconditional love.  Many showed us their honest feelings about Christianity and what they perceived it to be. When I simply walked in the peace of Jesus Christ without condemnation and lots of love, they kept talking and we kept listening. Most of the past year or so, I have been also been around a lot of people who don’t like the church at large, hate the church, find the church irrelevant, don’t think about it or stereotype her in many ways. Without saying it at times, their impressions of Christians are quite humorous. Some have been raised in church but would not walk into one now at any cost. Some or should I say many, especially among the 30-somethings, may even challenge us on topics of social justice and how they feel the church is totally irrelevant and bigoted. Many test us, trying to see if we are gay haters, hypocrites, religious right-wingers that equate Christianity with American patriotism and Republicanism. Woo-hoo what a ride over the past years! So what is the outcome of all this relationship diversity?

Christian – that is something that I don’t even want people to know I am at times. I am being serious here. Why? Simply because they equate the name Christian, for the most part, with anything but Christ and what the reality of the Gospel truly is. I find myself over and over having to qualify the simple fact that we are just preaching Jesus and the simplicity of the Gospel. Most find this interesting because they often tell us or show us by their expression, that this is not what they find Christianity to be as they observe the current condition of the church at large. So, in some respect, we feel we are continually taking the hits as we venture forth in a bold grace message of forgiveness and love extended to people, no matter who they are. There is a simplicity in Jesus Christ in you, that permeates every atmosphere you find yourself in, at any time.  The subtlety and sometimes forthrightness of our speech and actions always conveys some simple truths. God loves you. He sent His Son to die in your place so that you have life in Christ.

At times, I bristle when I tell people that I am a Christian because of the connotations that that term implies. I look past their judgment and simply relax and breathe in their presence, not trying to prove anything but just BEING Jesus Christ to them without judgment or condemnation or a Bible to pound over their head. Just because I don’t have to declare everything I believe does not mean I compromise my convictions or water down this glorious Gospel. I am simply following the Holy Spirit in loving the individual or individuals. And in the process I am seeing my eyes open to greater and greater dimensions of the Father’s love for me and for others. I was hard-core black and white some years ago in what I believed. Gray areas were for those who simply did not have enough faith or conviction to know the truth. Now I know that life is filled with shadows that we don’t really understand. Yet God knows us through and through and loves us with an everlasting love.

Out into the void goes my heartfelt feelings that if I could eliminate the word Christian I would. Just a personal thought! Yet we can’t do that so I wholly prefer to call myself a follower of Jesus Christ and a lover of my Savior. That sounds a lot better to me and it opens the ears of many to wonder, ask questions and listen. Out into the world I go. I am at peace and at rest and able to articulate the depths of my heart. Perhaps you may not relate to this. That is okay. I am in process and when this process ends, onto the next one I go. I look forward to the journey.